lost

contessa

I close my eyes and see you,
You smile, like you always do,
You want to speak but words do not come out,
Now I'm left to wonder what that was all about.

I open my eyes to view a room with empty space,
I want to move but time has locked me in a place,
I began to scream the words of the pain I feel,
Then I stop, saying it makes it seem more real,

The hurtful truth cuts me like a knife,
But there's little I can do with just this one life.
Finally I can walk but slowly I'll fall down,
My knees will hit the floor so hard but no one will hear a sound,

I'll question myself how I got here,
Nothing will answer but my fear,
Realizing now I have to face that fact,
I will ask myself how I will react.
Slowly, I'll start to get up and I'll look at the sky,
A single tear will fall down my face as I wonder why I cry,

I'll wonder to myself why I live life this way,
Smiling back, I know I'll get my answer one day,
Until then I'll take my little baby steps, hoping for something new,
Having the hope that in the end I'll finally have a clue.