Letting Go

Jessica Lynn Hepner

I sat staring out the window, into the darkness,
Searching for some understanding, some peace of mind.
Oh, how I long for the comfort I once felt, 
the feeling of belonging,
And the tranquility I now cannot find.
I feel empty inside,
 
Like a part of me is now missing 
or maybe has even died.
And with this anguish burning 
from deep within my soul,
It's these bitter angry tears that I cry.

The sudden realization that 
there is nothing I can do,ever,
Pounds in my head, chanting the song of a loser,
The ties that once held me to my hope 
are tangled around my throat,
 
And there chocking me with nothing but, 
this pure resentment.
Oh, if only I would have known,
Such torment I could have saved 
this poor old heart from.

If only I would have listened to 
what all the other had said,
Long before all this mass destruction was done.
But, I am a fool of all fools,
And I deserve only what I get.
And staring out across what is now just "The Ruins",
I know this I shall never forget.

I took a chance,
Then I watched it all come tumbling down.
Shattering into a million pieces of 
what might have been,Upon the ground.