Regrets

Rahul

All the pain that haunts me still.
 And all the shame surrounding you, 
Is now the past that I can't kill.
  Forever wrapped around me.

And all the sadness in my life,
 are now the things that I can't hide.
It's just a fear that's deep inside,
 from all the years of hiding.

There's a ghost that's inside of my mind, 
 and a pain is still haunting me. 
So I can never go back and rewind. 
 And I can never have peace or be still. 

Somebody take this away.
 But I have lived for you,
and every single little thing you do.
 But I have lived for you, 
and I won't kill myself for loving you.

I left me and am far away from me, 
 so I can never find you. 
You made me blind but I can see, 
  the loaded gun behind you. 
       
The end of all that this boy knew, 
 inside of me is all you. 
I miss the way we used to be,
 when I was what would bring you through. 

Because I have lived for you,
 and every little thing you do. 
But I can't rise above your lies,
 that you have gladly made your life. 
And I won't kill myself for loving you.