Love Or Pain

raj

All the time I think of you, 
but the thoughts remain in me...
They provide a crimson hue, 
to almost everything I see...

Why can't you ever be mine, 
when I'm yours completely? 
But my soul is not so divine, 
that you hate me eternally...

I lost all the good traits, 
that you once adored in me...
I got driven by the fate's
illusion to be free...

I long to just see you, 
and never let you down...
my love for you is true, 
but for you, I'm just a clown...

With all the world I fight, 
and claim that you are mine...
That's just a dream's sight, 
then reality does shine...

That fight was just in vain, 
I don't at all deserve you...
I'll get you but if you get pain, 
that would be a huge sin to do...

I can't force myself on you, 
and act what my real thoughts are...
I shall be more than glad to, 
see you as a bright and distant star...