Just a Little Longer

neil pathrick aman

Desolation, 
Wide open space, 
Between the trees and me, 
Emptiness and me, 
Confusion and decisions, 
Feelings hard to define, 
And I say to myself, 
Just a little longer, 

Coldness seeps
Its way in, 
I am falling deeper, 
Into what I fear most, 
As I reach out, 
There is nothing there, 
As possible there was something once, 
Only to be gone, 
And I say to myself, 
Just a little longer, 

The sun drops, 
The last inch of light falls, 
The squirrels more likely to be huddled up, 
But not me, 
Something I never possessed, 
And I say to myself, 
Just a little longer, 

Then the sun has gone, 
Darkness spreads its wings over me, 
I see nothing so no one sees me, 
Feeling of bitterness only, 
And I say to myself, 
Just a little longer, 

An Owl peers down, 
With question in her eyes, 
She doesn't have a hope, 
In helping me, 
As she doesn't see my pain, 
Spreads her wings, 
Passes me by, 
And I say to myself, 
Just a little longer, 

The soft earth, 
Seems the only thing holding me up, 
Even then I could slip, 
And wondering takes me, 
To why and how I got here, 
Without even knowing it, 
Yet no one notices, 
As they didn't see before, 
So I say to myself, 
Just a little longer, 

Shimmering in the darkness, 
I see two moons, 
Reflecting off a stream of thoughts, 
Ongoing forever more, 
Along a rocky road, 
Slowly giving in to finding a way out, 
I take the plunge under the river, 
Then the wind carries a whisper, 
Gently on a breeze, 
'Just a little longer.'