Failed attempts

Katherine

why did this happen to me?
I was everything to her and more to be.
why did it seem everything was going so well
when in reality everything went to hell.

wasn't I right for her or was it not meant to stay?
I should just end it this very same day.
so many tries, less and less hope.
it seems like I'm down to the end of life's rope

I try my best each day right? 
it just seems I'm always someones fight.
wait I see something in the distance
could this be a symbol of life repentance?

someone who is recognition with me 
and knows my life? 
someone who is willing to teach me 
to love life and fight?

maybe there is a second chance
one fun and again with romance.
do I dare trust it again?
or finally let pain take the gain.

decision of  life is difficult to choose
but choose right so you don't lose 
cause in the end what's worth fighting for. 

I think of cutting 
seeing those razors 
and thinking 
what am I really fighting for, 
my life, friends, and loved ones.