Preparation

Gary

I'm trying my best not to feel. 
Numbing myself to prepare for hurt. 
It's only temporary but it helps me deal, 
But still I wonder, "what was it worth?" 

All the opening up I did, 
All the heartfelt things I said, 
Maybe I should've kept everything hid, 
Suffocate them until they're dead. 

What would I do with these memories? 
What can help me bury these? 
Sorrowful songs & melodies? 
Or an escape across mellow seas? 

As I prepare, I hope I'm wrong
& I pray that we can carry on. 
But I suppose very soon I would know. 
If you're prepared to leave, I'm prepared to go.