Shadows Of The Past

Yanay Diaz

What is wrong with me?
Sanity is leaving
Lost in my head
Wondering in a maze
Of the past
Of the present
Of the future
Confused looking for a warm hug and kiss
Reaching
Stretching
Looking in deeper
Find it?
No
Head spinning in endless circles
Losing all grasp of it
The sanity I had
Coming back home were warm hugs and kisses await you
Flowed by worry eyes and unanswered questions
Speechless, word seem to have been forgotten
Like a baby I don?t know how to talk, cant but the words in the right order
Don?t know the words to say
The words that will make everything ok
Tears hit your cheeks not only yours but the once of the people who love you
My brain working harder and harder by second
Floating in a maze of nothing
Waiting for the words to hit me
For everyone to stop
For my tears to stop
For the pain to stop
What pain
I can?t seem to feel anything
Am I alive?
Shaking hands
Come to my eyes viewing point
Pale
Confusion strikes again
No sympathy for this lost sole
Sympathy something I always had
Always gave
Never got back
Got stabbed
Stepped on by the ones that loved me
The words they said lies
Hitting me every time
Life does teach you lessons
But it?s your choice to take them
Make them your own
Did I take mine the right way?
No