It's my fault I'm sorry

Georgina Martin-Gentleman

There was a time when we were happy 
Then all that changed
You told me he was hurting you
But I didn't listen 

Please don't cry
I wish I could turn back time
I wish I could end all the pain 
and suffering that took her away

I could see your arms
Broken and bruised
I am so sorry 

I could hear you scream
When he was there
But I turned away,
looked the other way

Hit after hit
I just stood there frozen in time
I was just too scared

I know that people
Ignored what was going on at home
Turned the corner pretended it wasn't happening

I could have done something
Ended all the pain
I could have listened to a scared boy
Then this wouldn't be the same

I know you miss her 
We all do
But she wouldn't want us to be sad

It's my fault you won't see her, hear her
She wont tuck you in at night
Or tell stories to your younger brothers

I remember a time when we were little
She was like a mum to me
I wish we could go back to then

Our last conversation was about boys and school
Oh how I wish I had known 
I miss her so much

Although she is safe now from the world 
That left bruises and scares 
You are left without a mother, father
And that is my fault

But remember this, 
she will always be here 
even though we can't see her

And i know shes watching over us and protecting us
shes always here no matter what

Just remember although she's no longer here
She loves you with all her heart 
And would do anything for you

I am sorry she's just a memory now
as you sat there holding on to her
struggling to breath as she slipped away 
from the world that brought only pain
and misery

You heard your brothers cry for a mother who wasn't coming
you began to cry.

But God needed an angel
so called her back
but that was too soon

I know that shes gone and she's never coming back
But we still have our memories 
Which we can treasure forever
Just as long as we both hold on

We will see her again
one day it will be our turn to 
and she'll welcome us home
but until that day we have to be strong.

I don't want to say goodbye
but I know i'll see her again
and we'll pick up
were we left off 
before she went away.