AM I A FALLEN ANGEL?

Jenny Beth Robertson

In my life I am 
Considered a freak
The weird bipolar girl
An outcast to most

But the thing is they don’t know me
What I’ve been through, they just don’t know 
They make fun of me
They call me names 

They call me fat, crazy, psychotic 
The freak that wears too much black
The freak that’s ugly

They all say to each other
Don’t be friends with her 
She’s crazy
They judge me 
Before they even take 
The chance
To know me

I begin to wonder
AM I A FALLEN ANGEL?

 I have two voices in my head
One’s saying don’t listen 
The other says LISTEN, LISTEN TO THEM!!
These voices drive me to rage

One voice is an angel
The other is the devil
When my devilish side
Begins to show 
I can’t stop it 
One way or another
When my angel side 
Begins to show 
It doesn’t last for long

I begin to wonder
AM I A FALLEN ANGEL?

What am I?
Why did god make me?
What is my purpose in this life?
Why was I made this way?

My life is full 
Of despair and 
Loneliness 
Sometimes I ask myself 
Why am I still living?
AM I A FALLEN ANGEL?

I am not suicidal 
I do not think that way
I am too scared to die
I will wait till 
It is my time

 That devilish side of me
Wants to die
But my angel side
Does not 

But I still
Begin to wonder
AM I A FALLEN ANGEL?