I'm Fine

cheyenne

I've been lost, I've been down, but most of all I couldn't be found.
I cried many times, I bled many times.

Those scars on my skin was about the past I was in. 
My past was painful. I quit cutting everyone became grateful. 
The scars on my skin make me wanna go back again.
My scars burn like they have just been cut. 

I am getting weaker by the day, 
but if I sadden today I'm afraid I'll let everyone down today.
My scars burn right now, 
but I am trying not to look at them, 
my hands shake because I can't take it much longer.
I overdosed three times, 
but I say I am fine. 
I lied so much about my feelings 
that I became to believe it myself.

I am not okay, but I believe I am. 
I am sad, but I believe I am not. 
I wish I could bare this pain, 
but I can't hold on much longer.
I am breaking down slowly, 
today may be my last day of being strong and keeping my head high.
I will be fine, please no worry, 
but please understand I am not worthy to go on much longer.