Sadness

Derek

Sadness is when everyone around you form
circles and clicks
laugh and smile

Talk about good times that you can't seem to remember
Back in the month of December

It's when you notice that no one notices you
There are groups all around but you're apart from all of them
It's just you

You can't even feel yourself
Don't even know yourself

Everyone seems to be vibrating in excitement for this social hour
You're just there drained of any sort of power

And all you feel is a quiet numbness
a certain kind of coldness

You lack desire
no reason to inspire
No reason

So unimportant in the constant of every situation
Your existence is the cause of some genetic mutation

Why are you here?
Exhibit no fear

Lack any ability to feel
your scars begin to peel

This sadness has left you dead so many times
Why have you been given so many lives?

You know it will pass
and it will return

Like a shadow
under a halo

it is always there
distant yet fair

Ranging and changing in the light
Forever searching for a certain reason to fight

For more than existing for the sake of existence
This, this is sadness