I try to live

Kat

i try to live,
but all it does is kill me,
i try to run,
but all it does is scar me,
i'm alone, and no one else can save me,
i try to fight,
but all the darkness surrounds me,
i try to live,
but all it does is kill me,
all they see is the outer core,
the darkness inside is changing my life,
i try to move on,
but all it does is hurt me.

I've been pushed, beaten,
thrown to the ground,
been everyone's puppet,
but i still smile all around,
like the pain inside doesn't even hurt,
even when my lips are blue,
my heart is broken in two.

no one really cares about me,
i try to live but all it does is kill me,
the darkness seeps in,
and i try to live again,
but it seems everyone wants me to die,
i want to live,
i try to fight,
but the demons control me,
as i pick up the knife,
so close to the neck,
but why?
then everyone would win,
and i would loose,
i run away,
to live another day,
hoping the demons won't follow me,
i try to live but all it does is kill me.