Masquerade

Silence

This is a deception; it's a masquerade
You'll of course picture a cheerful parade
I'll fade from your memory; happy and smiling
Often laughing and most times beguiling

Take no note of my mask's crumbling surface
I lived through my life without any purpose
And I'll always stay trapped, inside of your mind
A girl, willingly helpful and foolishly kind

But behind the scenes, I'll cry myself to sleep
And this illusive image, of me I will keep
I've never held close, my family and friends
But you'll never know this, until the show ends

The show, it'll end suddenly; so that you may see
How quickly the world has changed without me
And I'll be left fading, from the people's mind
As they cherish every moment, of me left behind

I'll carefully fold and leave behind this note
Stained with tears and guilt; last one that I wrote
As you slowly reveal in it, the many reasons why
I finally decided it was time for my "goodbye"

You'll re-read it, you'll drop it and begin to cry
And you'll remain this boy, broken and shy
As my gentle words leave trails of tears engraved
You regret me being the one, that you could have saved

You'll uncover my pain; I was bruised and torn
As too many nights passed, I wished I wasn't born
Then you'll tear up, regret accepting my fate
You'll realise that we shared the same stupid hate

And in the distance, the wind chimes they'll sing
As the bitter Winter slowly fades to Spring
I'll stay captive, in a cage of reminiscence
As you embrace my fading image of innocence

So I closed my eyes, I died weak but brave
And I know that someday, you'll stand upon my grave
And the Autumn leaves, they'll whisper my name
As you gently bow down, your head in shame