Cold Stromy Weather

Samia

If I tell you that your heart
 is what I want to steal,
 how would that make you feel, would that make you arrest me
 or would you stand still. 

I should've told you before, 
now that you're gone,
 its funny I still think you're the one. 

Do you know unspoken words feels like heart stabbed by knife,
 forever stucked, injects deeper as the time pass by? 
I'm assuming you don't.

 I'd have crushes before but 
you were something more,
 I was scared because I am forbidden to fall for some one like you & also because the feelings
 I was feeling for you was nothing like I felt before. 

What I didn't know then
 what I know now is,
 without you its like being lost in the ocean
 with cyclones as the only companions.

Truth is I just don't want to admit its already too late. 
My heart is Heavy & I can't barely lift the weight.
You know what's the worst part?
 I Feel like nothing can stop my aching heart.
 
Your memories are like thunders & its lights,
 each time they hit my heart with lightening strikes. 

I wish I could earse the Feelings you made me feel,
 like my racing loud heart when I caught your glance
 or at the closeness of you 
& being surounded by your scent, Smiling & grining like a idiot overwhlmed by your presence, 
my breath coming to hitch at the view of Your childish laugh 
& feeling nerves trying not to look too obvious.
 Not to mention all those butterflies in my stomach.

Then again I don't want to forgot these precious feelings. 
I should've known life isn't a fary tale to get the perfect ending.

 Its just that there was something more to those stares, 
which reflected mine, I swear.

 I do see why you'd cower & kept your voice lower. 
I was scare too, the differences between us was off limits, still I was ready to risk it.

 But you were the one who shut all the possible doors, 
or eles I would,ve let it all out ofcource. 

Its like I'm going insane.
 Only you can set me free,
 free from this unbareble pain. 

I know its not going to happen even if you were found. 
Damn! I'm just fooling myself around. 

I wonder if I will ever fall in love again. 
If not I should learn to accept there is nothing wrong in a rebound, 
I know how crazy it sounds.
But life goes on and I must move on.

 How am I supposse to forget you when you keep appearing in my dreams.
 Dreams of you are mixture of realive & pain. 
Realive, cause l can atleast see you there. 
Pain, cause its not fair, it leaves me with fresh sorrow of losing you again & again.

 I know to you I seemed crazy girl in love 
& because of that one day you'll see 
there is no one like me 
& no one can love you more then me.
 You might realize it when your settled down,
 you will be bound to think of us, 
that how we would' ve rather been,
 If you had given me one chance. You will know the real meaning of 'too late'
& will wish if you could change the fate. 

Regrets will haunt you for the rest of your life 
as the darkness will  emitt the light...well I'd like to imagine it that way, 
you drowning in my sorrow.
 But If not it some way or another your heart will be broken,
wouldn't it be fairly even?

 How am I so sure about it?
That's because karma is a bitch.
 I'm not a saint,no one is, so you can call me devil 
cause its really evil
 to hope, someday  karma will make you taste this same rain.

 Other then that I'm not wishing you ill or well neither.
 I just want you to know how it felt, the cold stromy weather.