Now Alone

Lost_Sinner

Alone in my head,
I'm feeling so low.
You won't understand,
No one can know.

My eyes are tired,
But I cannot sleep at night.
For your face haunts my dreams,
When I turn out the light.

It happened so suddenly,
It happened so fast.
I knew at once,
That none of this would last.

Was I just a game?
Was this all for fun?
Did my feelings matter,
To anyone?

"This didn't mean anything,"
That's what you said.
And I was so shameful,
As to believe the dead.

I held my head high,
As I walked by your side.
Tears welling up,
I was dying inside.

Weeks have passed,
Keeping secrets, telling lies.
I don't have the strength,
To look either of them in the eyes.

My heart has been broken,
Not once, but twice.
Once by my best friend,
Once by the love of my life.

Deep down inside,
I know it's my fault.
So I shall it,
Inside a vault.

Now with regret,
I cry with a shattered heart.
Was this the plan,
From the very start?

The words you spoke,
And the words I said.
Will forever be scarred,
Inside my head.

Sometimes I still think of you,
When I'm lying in my bed.
Still all alone,
Inside my head...

N.O.