I fucked up

redlover

I fucked up
I thought you would always be mine
I thought we would always be fine
I thought we would be okay 
That we would always have another day

I fucked up
I never thought to let you in
I thought that would be like a sin 
I thought you would hurt me
That you would crush me like a flee

I fucked up
I starting depending on you
You started being my glue
You helped me through the dark
I started feeling that spark

I fucked up
I started falling for you
But I kept telling myself it wasn't true
That I was still in control
That it wasn't you that made me whole

I fucked up
Because now you're not here
And this pain feels so severe
Because I'm all alone
And I'm just staring at my phone

Because I fucked up 
And the car took you away
But I still have to stay
And never see you again
Or have what could've been

Because I fucked up
And didn't tell you what you needed to hear
Didn't tell you while you were still near
Didn't tell you how much I needed you
And now you're dead and I am too

Because I fucked up
And I'll forever miss you