the truth is

Daniel Bogogolela

I know that I've never been
in your life.know that I've 
never showed up,know that 
I should've been there 
when you needed me but,
the truth is, you shouldn't
have had to wait for me to
show up.

As a parent I should've been
there and neither you nor your
mother should have told
me to come see how you both
are doing.

The truth is, I really wanted to
be there for you and watch you
grow into a wonderful man you're.
I should've known that loving 
women,leaving them and deleting
their contacts.

From my phone and email accounts
may backfire but, I was sometimes,
more hurt than lovers I no longer
needed.
I was too proud and in my pride
I never thought about any person's
feelings but my own.

The truth is, I couldn't not know 
what tomorrow held for me.
I thought that making my own plans
like a real man should.
And make my future better.

I forgot that to be wise, 
a man should leave all his 
tomorrows in the loving arms
of the Lord.
Because only Him knows what 
will happen between now and then.

I truly wanted to see you crawl
and stand up.
But as always, as my friend always 
said whenever he reprimanded me;
I wanted to toy with people's
feelings and forget about the 
repercussions of all of that.

Above all else, I'm thankful that;
 another man raised you and,
kept you safe from fierce winds.
From hands of those who don't know
how to nurture, and feed children
who aren't their own.

Today I have to say that I'm proud
to have a young responsible man
who has my physique and looks.
Whom I think would have
the same ability of doing
things like his father has.

I'm also proud that,
though she was young and had
to skip her studies for two years.
To bond with you, that your mother
saw fit, to carry you for nine
months.

And deliver you into this earth
without having known if I would
 ever be in your lives.