Why

Leslie

Why can't he see
The pain and the hurt
He has caused me.

The harsh words
I hear nearly daily
The harsh words
I sleep with every night

Something wrong in my head he says,
I am told I have issues with trust
It may have been many months ago..
To me it feels like yesterday...

I feel the knife in my heart 
From what he says is nothing
But she was something...
Still a part of our lives

I thought I could get over it
Deal with that pain and mistrust that he made.
But I was fooling myself. .
Forgive I can, forget I just can't

The laughter they share,
The little things he does for her
They shouldn't bother me
But they do, the wound still open.

Am I wrong to lash out
To be angry..
To not admit the reason why
It is the pain I feel from them,
For my trust they broke

Why can't he see
Just how much 
He is killing me.

I think he knows,
Deep down inside
But does he care
To make things right

Many nights I cry myself to sleep
He has no Idea,
It is a secret I keep
I wont ask for his help
Nor understanding
To do so would be a mistake,
And turn into a mental beating

Why must it always be,
Him attacking me
Mostly with words so hateful and bitter
The kind that one would utter to a enemy not a lover

So I am a enemy in this life we have built
I guess I am to blame
He tells me so everyday
So either I am, or maybe I'm actually insane

Why can't he see
Just how much his words...
Just how much his actions...
Just how much his hatred
Just how much it is killing me