Never ending road

Leo Negi

My face against the wall,
I am on my knees,
I don't know what to do,
someone help me please,
my closet is filled with empty bottles of beer,
there are cigarette leftovers everywhere,
I start writing stories but they didn't finish,
I close my eyes but there is no god to grant my wish,
my phone is lying there, no body calls on it,
no messages on my birthday, even my best friends forgot it,
I open my arms n close my eyes,
wind blowing my hair as my bike flies,
speed reaches over hundred, I feel like a bird with wings,
with no one attached to me, and no belongings,
there is no one for me out there,
I am too stubborn to surrender,
to confess that I am on losing side,
lifeless like a leaf washing away with tide,
where is happiness, I can't search it any more,
tired of finding it in relations, friends, love, now I am tried of all,
I am not sure where is my life is heading,
I have been walking for long but the road seems never ending....