LOVE HURTS ME!!

Cassie

I miss him so much.
An everythung i think of involves him.
When im alone.. i think of him..
At school.. i think of him..
At church.. i think of him..
I cant seem to get him off my mind..
He hurt me 3 times.. but i loved him and never stopped loving him.
He tells me that "LOVE" is a strong word.. then the next day he tells me "Cassie, i love you" its... wierd to me because every other day he 
Changes his feelings over me..
I dont know if i should believe him..
or if he is just saying this to make me 
feel better..
either way.. im not sure.. i love him alot.. and 
we arent even dating.. he dumped me 3 times..
but...every time ihe tells me he loves me.. it breaks my heart..
and i dont know why... every time he asks me out.. it makes me cry.. because 
i know that he is going to hurt me againn.. and soon..
We arent together right now because recently we broke up.. he hurt me deeply.. and i have such hatred for him.. right now,.. im afraid i will go back to him.. 
and i dont want to.. i would move on... but theres none out there that
i see myself happy with other then him..
but i dont think he feels the same
Because every time i write a paragraph..and sometime a two page text on my phone to him telling him how i feel..
he send back "o, ok, awh, ok??, or thats cool." that breaks my heart so much.. and when we arent together he calls me baby... that breaks my heart worse... i need someone new.. i just cant find him. need help....