Darkness

davon palmer

The darkness is binding and blinding.
I can't seem to see what really matters.
I'm too busy rapped up in my own petty affairs, to even care,
that there is blood dripping from my wrists,
that there are tears trickling down my cheeks.

I didn't know that following this path, 
would break my mothers heart.
But I don't care.
But I DO care!!!
Does it matter?!

I don't see the light, because I don't belong there.
I deserve what ever becomes of me.
I wanted to stop it, 
but the more you said it was wrong, 
the more right it seemed!!!

So I didn't know, 
but i did know I was called the devils child!!!
But why?!

I want always like this!!!
I was different.
You led me to this!!!
Its your fault!!!

Its your fault that I lay here now,
in a pool of my own BLOOD!!!!
It was you who made me doubt who I am, 
who I could have been.
So now...
I'm blinded by my own black heart
and shadowed soul
condemned to death.

But I know I shouldn't throw all  the blame on you, 
its partly my fault,
for being insecure
and listening to your whispered words
for doubting myself.
No matter if you caused it.
I'm just as much to blame as you!