I promised you

Lithium

I promised you 
That I won't wake up tomorrow,
You will come and find my body laying in a pool of my own blood....
You touch my hand and find it's cold and dead

You remember that my hand was warm and welcoming, but now......
It's cold and in need

In my hand lies a razor.....
And a note saying
'I'm sorry I can't be there to hold hands with you......
I'm sorry we won't have our first kiss....
I'm sorry we won't share our first I love you's .....
I'm sorry I won't be there when your on one knee .....
I'm sorry I won't say yes....
I'm sorry I won't be led by my father down the isle....
I'm sorry that we wont have our first kiss as husband and wife....
I'm sorry I won't be there when I am having our children....
I'm sorry I won't be there to watch them grow.....
I'm sorry I won't be there to watch them have there own family....
I'm sorry I won't grow old with you.....
I'm sorry that i won't see my grand children grow up......
I'm sorry we won't die in each others arms.....
I'm sorry for leaving you like this....
But I'm not sorry for loving you....'

As you read the note you had tears coming down your face.....
You wished I would wipe them away...
You regret..... But I do too 

I watch you as you have a family and grow old.....
Sometimes you think of me and cry...
Other times you smile....
You kept the note I left you...
As a reminder.... To never let go of the ones you love.....
And if you love some one......
Tell them......