the real me

lisa johnson

people don't see the real me, 
they only see the side i want them to see.
if people saw the real me,
the true me,
i think they would be scared or 
they will think I'm crazy

the real me is a depressed 21 year old 
girl who thinks about suicide all the time, 
a girl with so many insecurities.

the real me is a person who is 
afraid of being hurt all the time.
someone who gets jealous easily.

someone who can't stand to lose 
someone very special to her!
someone who hates hurting people but
some how does anyway
someone who who wishes for death everyday

a girl who is nothing

a girl who should be called "loveless"
because every time she loves someone
with all her heart....
it gets broken and damaged

a girl who wants to rip her heart
out so it doesn't get broken anymore

someone who asks to be killed

someone who cries for no reason at all

someone who would love with all 
her heart if someone would just 
give her the chance to.