Traumatizing

Brenna

It's what we've been given, 
it's the sunshine and the darkness
As pain and pleasure stand eye to eye
Inch by inch i can sense something easing closer
Evil intentions, as it breathes against my neck 
and the air in the room grows dry
he sun's daylight begins to fade 
and as it does i understand my heart is sinking too

Sadness whispers to me as anger finally leaves the room
there's a tornado in my thoughts, rampaging and spinning
My memories are like mouse traps, 
they snap my neck when i least expect it
Memories, remembering what never felt finished
Remembering traumatizing earthquakes that shook up my life
The person who trashed my soul
Coping through the nest of pain and holding onto lies
Visions of hideous sin
A veil of darkness hanging over
Enabling as it begins to sever my soul

A deep emptiness lingers, standing between God and i
Unrecognizable as i carelessly set my life in flames
Eager to find a way to escape the past pages of my life
I blindly follow my pain and obey it's impulses
I shyly walk away from what is good for me
I blame only one person yet it's not myself
Instead i blame the person i tied my soul to
The guy that then ripped out my soul when he left
How can i miss the person that has hurt me the most in life
How can i be affected so tremendously by one single person