Lets Pretend

Brenna

Now let's pretend as a kid i was never socially awkward
And i never handed myself over to a molester
Let's pretend maybe I'm not as messed up as i feel
And let's pretend that the past three years of my life weren't real
And that i don't always seem so emotionally frail
And that i don't blame myself for all the things that have failed

Let's pretend I'm not really afraid to be touched
And let's pretend i don't actually hate you this much
That my soul never died, that I'm not really this angry inside

Now let's pretend I'm an open book and not so uptight
That i don't always ruin all the things that i like
Let's pretend i never lost a grip on my sanity
And that I'm not in bondage to jealousy

Let's pretend i never had glasses and didn't look like a guy
That i was never painfully shy
Let's pretend i ever had a single friend in elementary
And that i never hated myself for being ugly
Let's pretend i never grew up living a sheltered life
And let's pretend mom and dad, i didn't get wasted last night

Let's pretend i didn't really want to kill myself when i was 13
That school was never excruciatingly hard for me
Let's pretend i don't feel depressed every day
And this time bomb inside of  me isn't ticking away

Let's pretend i never grew this insecure
And let's pretend that you could be my cure
That you could be the one who could fix it all
Let's pretend you're the guy that won't let me fall
That you're the end to all the ones who tried to use me
Let's pretend you're falling in love with me