Embaressment

Gloria Venus

I was 13 when I went out with Lawrence. I broke up with my boyfriend because I chose to be with Lawrence. We were in the same hostel and we even took tuition together. He was a month younger than me but I didn't care. I was madly in love with him. When he kissed me, it felt like heaven. I would do anything to please him. I just want him to be happy. He invited me to a concert one night but i couldn't go because I was sick. I knew he was mad but he didn't show his feelings. That night, my friend was there at the concert. She told me the next day that Lawrence was flirting around with another girl and that he was really drunk. I just sad that it maybe because he was too drunk. But later that day, he told me that he wanted to break up with me cause he had found a new girl. I was so,so,so sad... tears rolled down my eyes continuously and i couldn't stop crying. He told me that the new girl was May, she was my greatest enemy. I don't want him to date my enemy, of all the girls out there. Of course she was prettier than me, she have all the things I don't have.. I loved him so much and I don't want to lose him to my enemy. But he didn't listen to me and moved on. I cried and cried and cried until my eyes were all swollen. The next day, his friend Josh asked me out. He was actually my cousin. But since I wanted to forget about Lawrence and start afresh, I said 'Yes'. Our town is quite uneasy because people don't kiss each other in public. So, I and Josh kissed in a classroom one Tuesday morning. some girls saw us and spread the news like I was having sex with josh. I know I was wrong. But they don't know anything and they just spread rumors. I was so ashamed and I dropped out from school. I was scared to face reality. But I never forget about Lawrence. I still loved him all along.
I'm now,15 years old, in a new school, having a new boyfriend-Harvest. I love him so much,and i hope he does too. But i can never really trust boys again after that incident. I live on, with guiltiness in my heart. I hope everyone understands me. Some boys are not worth being trusted.
P.S.-I'm really happy now.