Forbidden Love G&A

Broken_Hearted

My story is a one-sided love. It was my senior year, I was content. I awaited for the joy that was coming, excited to end high school. However, what I didn't know my Bio class will be where I'll find my first love. One may say it seems flimsy but the first time I saw my teacher, my heart fluttered. He shook hands with all his students and the moment he took my hands and gazed into my eyes, I knew my heart wasn't mine anymore. Since then on I made it my goal to be the perfect student. It was hard because unlike usual I had to work harder, for he wasn't an easy teacher. Each time he would mention his wife, it broke my heart and I envied her. Despite, the glow he got by talking about his baby girls (daughters) made me happy. I was glad for him.

Our relationship began changing when he began seeing my work ability. Like any teacher he recognized me as a good student. But..there was a bit of difference. He actually began smiling and paying me more attention, or so it felt like it. It's silky but he'd say something but if I objected, he'd jump in and defend me. All these could be normal behavior, so what when we talked we gazed deeply, so what he would look at my lips and luck his lips...so what I would look up from my test only to see him looking. It didn't matter I knew he only thought of me as a student. That's all I'll ever be to him..a student.

Five years later, I'm still here thinking back on him. He was very handsome, passionate and intelligent. A man I've still yet to find. One may say it was childish love, puppy love but it wasn't. Now as an adult I realized, I truly loved him, maybe still do. I'm glad though I never took any advances or tried to seduce him. I'm glad I wasn't a home-wrecker. I'm happy that he is happy somewhere..I can only hope one day I'll find a man like him.
If not, living on his memories is more than enough. At least he knew me once. Even though I cried endlessly at times, distanced myself from him..my heart still belonged to him.
That is something he'll never know. But it's true when one says,
Your first love is pretty much the last love. It leaves a scar imprinted forever, painful yet blissful and something one will live off from. I love you, Tall_Freak (my nick to him) I hope in one lifetime you'll be mine as I'm already yours and forever will be.

---Silly_Crush turned into True_Love