What is forever?

Miyu

Feb. 28 2010. The day we first met. I was dumped by a jerk that day. His best friend, David came and comfort me, thinking I was actually sad that jerk dumped me. He dumped me for a girl who's much "Hotter" David was mad at him saying that how could he dump a girl who much more caring, sweet, and kinder just for a "hotter" girl. And that broke their friendship.

That day we ended up talking and talking, slowly I started to really liked him. I asked for his number and chat online. We don't see each other much, so we chat online a lot. One day he asked me out, dumping a girl who cheated on him many times. I was happy, overjoyed cause by that time, I fallen for him. Brown hair, hazel eyes, and amazing voice to match that smile of his. We both loved each other, even though we had little stupid fights but we went a day without making up. We talked day and night till 2 in the morning.

After one year, Valentine came up. I make a present for him. A flower, a letter wishing valentine and anniversary, and a drawing of us, since I'm good at drawing. I was happy to make it this far, even though our fights got a little bigger, but i still held on and didn't give up. That night when I went online, he was talking with another girl, flirting more like it. I got mad and called him up. He said he like to met new people. I was hurt, scared, sorry for all the fights we had. I blamed it all on me. I begged and begged over the phone to give me one more chance. Then she called him, The girl he "likes" called him and started to cry over the phone.

At that point i was more terrified than ever. I kept saying please and please and please crying and curl myself up. I ran through the memories we had, I told him everything we've done and how far we came. But all he said is that he give us the answers tomorrow and hung up. I was shocked, the most sweetest guy in my world, he just like stabbed a knife straight through my heart. Breaking it more and more. I cried, I kept on crying, i just couldn't stop going through our sweet text messages. I finally fell asleep.

10 am. Feb.14 2010. I give him a call. he picked up. My heart beated faster and faster, scared to find the answer, knowing its not gonna be me. I knew what he was going to say. He told me that the girl stayed on the phone the whole night cause he forgot to hung up the other line. He was "touched" by her heart. My heart sinked down to the bottom, stabbing again and again, never letting go. I said my final I love you and hung up. He called back saying he will chose me. I couldn't believe what i was hearing and I shouldn't have. That day he spent the whole day with her. Not even looking at me once. Valentine's day lost its meaning to me....

Even today I will wish I could change everything and be his again. I want to feel his embrace again. The loving, charming, sweet prince, has died inside me......I wanted an engagement ring that Valentine too </3. He said he would give me one...</3 Now I'm just shattered, still being faith, waiting on him right this second.