Something i can't bare to read over

Kristen

Two summers ago i was introduced to a wonderful guy named Kalabe. At the time i didn't know him all that well so i wasn't really interested. I heard he was interested in me, but i had been hurt before so i was scared. We talked a lot and i started developing feelings for him. He came over to my house one day after school where we sat and watched movies. That night he asked me out and i said yes. I was very happy but i was scared, i didn't want to get hurt again. I put that behind me and focused on what i had; i was happy again.

As our relationship went on we got really close and i fell in love with him. We spent a lot of time together and when we weren't together he was all i thought about. I never had feelings for someone like i had with him. I was caught up in him and i never wanted to let go.

We dated for 11 months and one day everything just changed. That day he sent me a text telling me that he needed a break and that he loved me and he promised we'd get back together, he just needed his time. At first i was upset so i sent him a mean text but then i apologized and told him I'd give him his time.

Weeks went by and we were still talking to each other but i found out he was talking to another girl. I had been hurt again, the whole time i thought we were getting back together but it was all a lie. I feel he told me we would get back together because it would ease my pain. Lying just made everything worse. Soon enough him and the girl started dating, i felt like my heart had been ripped into pieces. I couldn't stand to see him with another girl after the things i had been told. I was hoping that when they broke up he would realize what he lost and that i was still here but he didn't he started talking to another girl.

After i heard he was dating someone else i tried to move on, i had to find someone that could make me happy again. I started talking to this guy who i thought would be something good for me, he would tell me all the things i wanted to hear. I soon found out he had been talking to his ex while he was talking to me. i told him i didn't want to talk anymore and at that time i gave up. I just wanted to be alone. Sometimes I'll talk to Kalabe it makes me happy but it also just hurts me even more. I still love him and i don't know when i will ever fully move on but for now I'm not in a hurry. I'm waiting for that right guy to come along and love me with everything he has, until then i will give myself time to heal.