The Best Choice

Blaire

Maybe i should start this by saying "Hi" everyone, I'd read a lot of your stories here, and I was inspired so I created my own story. I didn't want anything I just wanted to share my own story and ill truly appreciate if you'll have time to read this :D

Steph ( not her real name ) is my best friend since I was in high school , she's just a typical girl but because of her attitude she has a lot of suitors, and i can justify that. We already knew each other well, that we don't have any secrets at all. If she's not around, my day is incomplete , we really enjoy each others company, that sometimes we even isolated ourselves to our other friends.

Until one day, my ultimate crush wants to court her , she knew how i feel for him, but I never show my feelings to him, nobody knows it except steph. She confessed it to me, I don't have any choice to disagree the way she looks I know she like "Kevin" as well. " What? you don't need my permission , you like him and he likes you , what's wrong? Come on steph! haha.. Its fine", i said. She just hugged me and said " you're really my best friend".

I was lying in my bed, thinking how happy they will be , my best friend and my long time crush what a couple, how sweet :(. Tears fell down in my cheeks, I know it hurts really. I'd never fall in love to anybody, I'm already 16 during those days, but I don't have any boyfriend since birth, I'm afraid to fall in love. Suitors? i do have, but none of them is my type, the only guy that can make my heart stops from beating, the only guy that can make me smile when life turned hell, its only Kevin. But now he'll be w/ someone else, and that's steph my best friend. I didn't sleep that night , I just stared blankly, waiting for nothing , until sunrise flashed on my windows." God its already morning, tell me how to pretend that its okay ", sighed.


And like what I expected they became lovers, every time i saw them, laughing each other, hugging even kissing , I almost died and tore into pieces,but what else i can do, I just smiled at them, told them how lovely couple they are, and blah blah blah. w/c kills me badly.

Because of that, steph doesn't have a lot of time to me, w/c is given because she has kevin w/ him, w/c for me is a relief because I don't have a lot of strength to pretend sometimes its unbearable. I really missed steph , our time together lessen and lessen each day.

Few moments passed and our friendship was almost gone,I've decided to focused on my study,read books, i even wrote short stories and showed it to my classmates, they like it and it inspired me to just spend my time w/ this stuff to forget my feelings on kevin.

7pm :
I was walking on my way home, I was reading books in the library that I didn't noticed it was already evening. "hey, claire", someone called my name, and his face became clearer as he came nearer to me. My eyes grew bigger, i almost drop my jaw, it was kevin who called me, for the first time he called my name, i was really happy. I don't know what to say, I just stared straight to his big black eyes, oh God i really love those eyes. "are u ok" he said. I felt embarrassed, did he notice? " yeah.. uhmm.. where's steph?, I said wishing that time will stop. " hmm i don't know, uhm.. would u mind coming to my house , i need your help,i do have some school paper to do, and i think i cant finish it all by myself, i hope you'll come.pls? .. OMG! what can i say? why on earth i will disagree? of course ! but I remembered steph its very awkward to come on his boyfriends house w/o her knowledge so .

" I see, I'm sorry kevin but i do have some homework to do as well, try to txt steph maybe shell come ", i smiled. ( "gosh, am i stupid?).. " hmmf.. ok " and he went away. I continued walking, wearing a happy face.

" hey claire, looking good today!" he shouted .. i heard him shouting. My cheeks turned red, my hands was trembling,and as i walked faster my hearts moved upside down , " hell, I'm in love ".

I still remembered how he look that night, hes a breathtaking beauty. I was reading my favorite novel, and my phone rang , i wondered who it was, calling at the middle of the night, it was Steph.

steph : " best?
me: yeah! why'd you called?
steph: ( sobbing) .. best..
me : what happened? are u crying?
steph : we broke up ( crying)
** i was stiffened**
steph : hey claire, r u there?
me : yeah.. i heard u..
steph: u know how much i love him, i don't want. ( blah blah blah, i didn't heard all what she said, my mind is gone, i think i been numb for a few minutes, " is it why he wants me to come"?

" I don't know "..

days passed.. steph still cant move on about their broke up, but it was kevins decision, she didn't tell me exactly, what happened and i don't even want to ask . and days get back to normal again, steph and i had a lot of time together, but still i cant forget kevin. :(

It was our classmate Ana's birthday and everyone is invited , we wore our best sunday's dress, and since steph was sick that time she's not allowed to come. So i wore my black tube dress, hoping that this will be a best day to all of us.

I was eating a pasta , and everyone was dancing, laughing ,talking, everyone seems very happy . " hi", i cant believe my eyes can see its kevin who sat beside me. I almost choke, i grabbed a glass of wine, w/c sucks! nervously i said " hello". "you look beautiful ", he said smiling. " thanks" ( my god ! hes a perfect combination of handsome and sexy ) " wanna dance? " he asked me ..

you know what's next? ..

We were dancing at the middle of the crowd, hes hands on my hips, i on his shoulder. Hoping, this evening not to end, we were looking at each others eyes,I was madly in love with my best friend's ex. we were so silent , i don't have the urge to say anything. our face so close each other that i can smell his fresh breath, that's the first time i saw hes face so close, ill never forget that face. never .. my first love :(

" I have something to tell you " , he said..
" what ? " , i said.. I have to admit, I'm hoping its the confession of his love to me.
"i like you, can u be my girl? "..

-- words cant described how i felt, i don't know what to say, i cant even say a word,i cant even open my mouth.I felt so shocked, and so happy . . .

You might think I'm so stupid for doing this, w/c i can admit, i left him w/o saying a word... I know i will regret this , but i don't want to lose my best friend , i know until now. steph still loves him,and i don't want to be another reason for her to cry.

He even sent me a letter , saying that he loves me, that he just courted steph to get closer to me, that i looked snobby and hes afraid that i will just ignore him, w/c doesn't makes sense to me. On the contrary, steph and I are still bestfriends, i went to another place to continued my study, we just sent each others msgs. and were contented on that .

about my love life I still dont have boyfriend up until now w/c is sad I'm already 18 haha, but at least i have lots of friends,and if i and kevin is meant together i know destiny will make a way. I might regret leaving him , but i will never regret sacrificing my love over my best friend..
- that was the last time i saw him, but like what i said i will never forget him, the way he looks, he smiled, my first crush , my first love .. I still love you ..


Ps : I'm from Philipphines btw.