Why?

Jayjayz

"Lily, its time for bed"My mother yelled up the stairs as I walked out from the bathroom.
"Ok, I'm going to brush my hair then I am going to bed" I unwraped the towel from my head and let free my long blonde wavy hair.
"Ok, night honey"
I walked into my dim lighted room and closed the door and turned on my desk lamp and started with my hair as I listened to my favourite song. I placed my newly bought hair brush on the desk and went to my closet and changed into a pair of sweats and a tank top.
I walked to my mirror and looked at myself and sighed. The more I try to lose the weigh the more I gain it. I ran my hands from my collar bone to my hips and let out a tear and I lifted my top to revel the three inch cuts on my tummy. I ran my hand over the scars and shivered at the thought of when I did them.

(Flash back)
"Lily, Lily she is a fatty" I cried as the girls of year 10 laughed and shouted at me.
I covered my face with my hands and forced myself to think no one could hurt me. But little did I know my hands just made it worse as one of the boys which I had once called friend punched me in the face.
I fell to the grass with a loud thump as my head hit the ground and the rocks hidden within it. I cried out in pain as I held the back of my head and looked up to my attacker and let out a whisper.
"I forgive you" He looked at me and laughed.

I don't remember much after that I kept going in and out of a peaceful blackness. I woke to my mother kissing my cheek.
I slowly opened my eyes to see it was night time and was in my bed.
"Hey honey, you are ok now just a few scratches and bruises" She grabbed my hand and rubbed it with her thumb.
"I am ok mum you can go, I just want to be alone"
"Ok, sweaty I should let you sleep" She kissed my forehead and left the room.
I couldn't sleep at all that night. It was about 3:00 am when I slowly pulled myself out of bed and walked down the stairs to the kitchen and grabbed a knife. I walked back up to my room and closed my door and made my way to the mirror. I slowly pulled my shirt up and held it in my mouth as I placed the knife on my tummy and looked at the mirror as I slided it across my white skin and seconds later my skin started to stane red as the blood crept out of my tummy. I could smell the blood it was over welming. I shook my head and slide harder six more times and watched as the blood flowed and covered my pants.
I dropped the knife on the floor at the same time the door opened showing my mum
"Honey, why are you u?" She gasped as I turned and looked my mum in her horror shocked face as my eyelids took over and I fell.

(End of flash back and chapter)

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