what I can Never have

Razan

Hi, since today it's been about three days that I haven't been able to go to sleep i think about this guy I know all the time and I keep telling my self that i should not be thinking about him but I just can't keep him out of my mind, so By now you should be wondering why don't I just tell him that I think I'm in love with him So here is my story:
about 2 years Ago my friend started telling me about this guy that I don't even know she talked about him all the time but he didn't even know her back then so to help out who was my best friend I met him and we started talking so i could tell him about her and make them meet and one day she talked to him through my email and he asked her who she was and he turned out to know both of her brothers so after a while the three of us stared talking a LOT! and he would always ask about me and talk about me in front of her so she thought we were In love with each other but the problem is that I was not even In love with him and when she told me I started to think about him and always check how he was doing so one day we went out for a walk and simply saw him, he kept talking to me and ignoring her i kept saying i should go but he kept stopping me so she felt like something was going on between us so she offended me in front of him i didn't say a word to her and just simply said bye and I went on home since then he kept acting funny around me and like he didn't want to even be around me so I stopped talking about even asking about him but deep inside I know that all I want is to hear his voice i was trying to help my best friend and all I got was a back stabbing ex= best friend to now I still can't tell him because i respect the fact that one day I called her my friend and I'm not the type to screw over my friends and I just know That I could Never Call him Mine!

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thanks for reading my story!