Goodbye Forever

*Starcatcher* <3

Let me just start off saying I still love him and he is all I had and everything to look forward to. Now that he's gone I have NOTHING!!!!

Me and this guy Michael were dating for 4 months and we were in mad love with each other. Only problem is he is 18 and I'm 15 (about to turn 16). One day while I was at school the cops showed up at his house asking him if he was dating a kelia golden (which is me) and if he was he was going to be arrested and sent to jail over stagetory rape. So he said "No sir, I know OF her but I don't know her and I'm am NOT dating her". Which yeah it hurts but I can totally understand. At the time I didn't have a phone so when he needed to tell me something important he would text my best friend Gloria (she also knows him. met him through her.).On that day I walked into the cafeteria to get my lunch, Gloria walks up to me and says "i have some VERY bad news for you". i was thinking "ummm okay???"

So she gives me her phone and tells me to start reading the messages, between her and Michael. He said that the cops showed up at his house asking him questions about if he was dating me and blah blah blah... Well Gloria says "Can't you guys just be together secretly this is gonna hurt Kelia really bad?" He replies back with "GLORIA YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND I CANT BE WITH KELIA ANYMORE!" when I read that message it tore me apart. I ran outside and broke down crying on the cold ground. Gloria runs out looking for me, she finally finds me and asks me if I'm okay? And I say "GLORIA NO I NEVER LOVED ANY OTHER GUY AS MUCH AS MICHAEL NOW I GOTTA WAIT UN TILL I'M OLDER." she says "then why don't you just wait you only have a few more months. I scream at her without meaning too saying "GLORIA I DON'T WANT TO WAIT, BY THE TIME I'M OLD ENOUGH HE WILL BE GONE AND MOST LIKELY HAVE ANOTHER GIRLFRIEND!!!"

The past few weeks were horrible I started to slit my wrists and think of suicide. I attempted suicide and it didn't really work out. I went to school the following day and the social worker called me up to her office and sent me to the hospital because of the scars on my wrist and the suicidal attempts that I have tried to do... I was in the hospital for 3 1/2 days.

Once I got out I came home and took a shower and everything like that.. After that I am refreshed and every thing like that... I simply use my moms phone and call Michael... He answers the phone and says "Hello Beautiful :). I know we're not allowed to be together but you're still beautiful and you're still mine. I still love you dearly Kelia forever and always." We talked on the phone maybe for like 2 and a half hours...I was so happy!! THEN HE SUDDENLY TELLS ME HE HAS LEVEL 2 CANCER!!!!..........The next few weeks went by and I was doing a little bit better. Then I got in trouble for skipping class one day at school and got ISS the following day. I told Michael and he gave me a surprise visit... He only did it because he needed to talk to me. THIS IS WHERE YOU GUYS ARE GOING TO CRY!
He told me that he was leaving for boot camp that day and he wasn't coming back to Richlands. But that he was always going to love me and he will NEVER forget about me. Okay well here it goes. HE KISSED ME AND HE TOLD ME THAT ITS TIME TO SAY "GOODBYE FOREVER!" and he walked away leaving it at that.

Today I was called up to the front office and he was on the phone I picked up the phone and he told me that on his way down (while driving) he was in a car accident he broke his leg fractured his shoulder and broke his arm.. and the worst part is his cancer is getting worse (now on a level 4) and he cant go to boot camp he has to stay in the hospital on a damn machine and the doctors told him that he might not be able to make it with in 2 months!

October 13 2011 was the day we got together.
January 11 2012 was the day we had to break-up.
October 13 2011 will be the day I live over and over in MY world.
January 11 2012 will be the day I will pour hatred over for the rest of my life...

I LOVE YOU MICHAEL AND I ALWAYS WILL. I HOPE THE DOCTORS CAN SAVE YOU AND YOU WILL FIGHT EVERY INCH OF THE WAY THROUGHOUT THIS HORRIBLE TRAGIC.

10-13-2011 THRU 01-11-2012

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