I pushed her away...

Anna

I never knew my best friend Kayla was a lesbian. (I'm a girl) I had a boyfriend, Damon, who I really cared about but even after 5 months I didn't love him or want to be with him. So Kayla revealed to me one night at our routine sleepover, that she was a lesbian, and that she was in love with me. I was shocked, I loved her, but did I LOVE her LOVE her? Was I ready to "come out" and deal with mocking or disappointment? We kissed that night, and I decided that I loved her too. We took a picture of us kissing. Somehow, Damon went through my phone and found the picture and threatened to tell everyone. Being a complete moron, I told him I'd do anything if he didn't tell. I was so selfish, i just couldnt lose my social status. I lost my virginity to Damon that night, he told everyone about it, and he told everyone about the kiss. I tried to explain to Kayla, but she hated me. I had betrayed her. I dropped out of school and went to live with my older sister Kelly. I still love Kayla, but she hardly answers my calls and she has a new girlfriend, as does Damon. I ruined my life, I should have just acceped her...us...