I could never tell him.....

Moonlight

I could never tell how much I loved him..........

It has been almost 3 years now ..... I still have not been able to tell him how much I have loved and still love him. Now it is coming to an end, he will move in two months ....

2009 during the autumn the year I started studying at university, that's when everything started. I saw him in the school cafe he passed by me with his tea in his hand. I stopped and watched him constantly, in seconds and I felt that he will be the guy I will love for the rest of my life, I felt that my heart was going to stop, it was like love at first sight ..... The days weeks and months passed, one day when me and my friends were over a coffee in a cafe, I saw him come in and approach to our table, he was friends with some of my friends, they greeted each other and it was since 2010 8 April at 18:30 then one of my friends presented him for me, from that moment we knowned each other. We became friends, that day it felt like the whole world was mine> I could fly anywhere .....

That evening I added him in facebook and he accepted, then we noticed that we have pretty similar taste in music, so he started sending songs to me often, and me too. The days the weeks passed, we were in school we had coffee, we ate food at times, We became good friends, since 2011 in the spring, he told me that he will study in an other country for one year, when he told me that my whole world destroyed .... Although I knew he would come back after a year I felt as painful to think that he would not be in the same city as me, although we do not often talked or seen often it was enough to me to know that he and me breathed the same air in the same city that was really enough for me.

I cried day and night. I learned later that he had a girlfriend, I felt so sad and was crying all the time, I saw that he shared the photos with his girlfriend in Facebook, the world was ruined for me. I was almost sure that he understood my love to him, so when I was spending time with him I was not myself. I could not be, but even though he knew my love, he did not cancel our friendship, or he didn't speak about it to me. He should stop spending time with me, either write text or talking to me .. .. In any case, he moved abroad and lived there for a year, now he's back, he came in mid-March, now I found out that he will move to another country altogether, he will disappear, I will lose him, but I don't think anyone can not lose something you never won. Now I want to follow my feelings, my heart cries says go and tell him how much you loved him, he should know all that, it hurts so much in my heart. I suffer from pain! I have completely gone now I saw him today, April 8 2012 we were in an common friends place it was so painful to see him sit and speak with him, everything feels so hard, I really don't know what to do, I feel pain in my throat, a pain that never goes over.........

I feel that I want to live in same country same city with him even if he has a girlfriend, even if he loves another girl, I want to see him even if its feels painful..... This is my love story. What would you have done if you were in the same situation as me?
I hope GOD will show me the right way.....
Thanks for reading!