I've missed him ..

nadine

All this time, years apart ..I've missed his smile, the way he used to make me laugh just by being there, the way he made me fall in love with him without a single effort this is the only thing he was good at. Circumstances were tough and I could't be with him but also couldn't forget him. I've tried so many times but can't get him out of my mind cause every single detail in my daily life reminds me of him.

Sometimes I pretend being assertive and try to move on with my life but in vain. He has never told me he loved me but somehow my love for him grows everyday.. I always wonder what he is doing? who is he with? does he even miss me? these questions are killing me , his absence is killing me but I just can't call him and say those words to him there were times I dialed his number and tried to call but I failed miserably, I can"t confront him just can't. I know he is a good person but it just wasn't a good timing the whole world was against us and I didn't fight for us nor did he.

what hurts me the most is that I have never got the chance to tell him this, he left without a goodbye and never bothered to ask if I'm fine or not, If I'm still alive or not, maybe we're not meant to be together but it's tearing me apart. It's been a year now and I can't forget him ....he is always with me. I always feel him close to me. He is the best thing ever happened to me but everything was quick it's like everything occurred in a blink of an eye and the worse thing is that I realized that I love him after leaving each other and I wanted that. I wanted some time to think and clear my mind. I regret so bad asking for that cause I'm in pain right now I feel that my heart is torn apart and I hurt myself a lot trying to put it all back together. My life is empty, my heart is empty and I don't know how to heal I don't know how to move on and let him go. I'm fed up trying over and over and failing. I want my life back ..