Why did you leave me?

Sapphire

My aunt Connie ...It was one rainy day. I couldn't bare not to cry. She was everything to me, she was my life, my sunshine that kept me going. I need her. She was my inspiration. I loved her so much. Now on this rainy day, she got sick. Not just any kind of sick, but a virus. My uncle thought it was just a cold. Until she started acting like she was two years old. Then he took her to the doctor. He said that she had a virus but they couldn't find out what it was. Or what was causing it. The last time I saw her, was right before she got sick.

Now it's September and she isn't doing very well. She has been in and out of the hospital for day and weeks. My mom has been going to see her daily to make sure she is okay. My aunt payed no attention to what my mom was doing, she just sat there and stared and laughed. It was very sad. I never thought about her getting sick until then.

It's now January. She has held up such a fight for so long. She is staying in the hospital now. I want to see her so bad, but my mom forbids me too. She didn't want me to get the virus either. She stayed alive for almost a year. I was 9 when she had the virus.

She's dead now. I found out when my mom came back. I didn't get to say goodbye to her. I was crying non-stop. I cried myself to sleep that night. She died on March 4, 2008. That is four days before my birthday. They also had the funeral two days after my birthday. I didn't want to do anything on my birthday with my Dad's side. We had a family party. I sat in my room. Just starring out my window.

The funeral is today. I was acting all tough and asking,"Why is everybody crying?" But I was really dying inside. I wanted to cry, but I thought people would make fun of me. Then it struck me. I had to write a letter. So my letter I wrote:

Dear Aunt Connie,
I will miss you a lot. I'm terribly sorry for not getting a chance to say goodbye to you, but my mom wouldn't let me. I love you and you made me smile every time I was around you. You had the most beautiful hair. I'm trying to be tough, I really am. It isn't working out though. I'm just having tears roll down my eyes right now. And oh when I saw that little smile you had, that made me cry so hard because you normally had a giant smile from ear to ear. I miss you so much. I'll never forget you Aunt Connie.
Love, Sapphire.

After that I felt the need to do nothing. I just wanted my Aunt back with me. I miss her so much. Thanks for reading....