A Drop In The Ocean

TheBrokenKid

Its been a month, a week, and 3 days since we last spoke. I'm trying not to care anymore even though I think about you 24/7 to this day. I'm proud of how strong I have been with dropping you out of my life but its funny how I still remember the first time we met. what you were wearing, how you were looking at me,and what you were doing. You seemed harmless. I thought I'd be the harmful one.. yeah shit was rocky but I knew no matter what, you would always stick by my side like my ride or die. I thought we would always work out our differences. I never knew what love was till I fell for you. But I also didn't know that that would be the worst mistake in my life so far that I would ever make.

It'll be a year that we've been broken up in 17 days. shocking that I'm still hurting. The sad thing is that I would give you a second chance if you asked... but I saw your true colors. You're a lying slut that plays with peoples minds and hearts and finds it funny. You crave attention. You're a player. You're a cheater. To sum it all up, your nothing but the lowest form of bitch there is. But yet I still love you ?! I hate that I love you. I can only hope that one day you realize how bad you fucked up. I let down my guard with you, let you take my virginity. I should've known when you told me I'd regret it, that you were telling the truth.

Well I do regret it. I regret meeting you. I've seen things, heard things about you, but that never caused me to give up on chasing after you, trying to get you back, waiting 6 months on something that even though I knew wasn't coming, I still had hope and never gave up. Every time you hurt me, I forgave you knowing I'd be hurt again but I didn't care because as long as I had you in my life, nothing else mattered. You're the only girl I'll ever love and I put that on everything I have.

I know now that I was the one that got away and I'm proud to say that because as I see the others you play still there, being hurt and the pain there going through. I am free. you can no longer over power me, control me, hurt me. You always saw right through me. You always got what you want but I'll be the first mother fucker to deny you. So many nights I cried over you, so many songs we shared that I wont ever be able to listen to again without tearing up. I'm not gonna lie I still go look at the old pictures, but that's only because I miss the memories, not the person.

I've spilled my heart to you so many times, and so many times you responded with bullshit, bullshit that I believed even though deep down inside I knew it wasn't true. You were like an addiction, and I still have relapses, but so far I'm sober, and I've got a sponsor in my life that puts an even better smile on my face then you ever will again.

Goodbye beautiful!!