i think im in love

jenna

I'm fifteen years old and about to become a freshman, but I'm story really starts when i was thirteen and a sixth grader in middle school. One of my best friend has a step brother that I knew he liked me. When i found out he liked me I thought about it and realized i liked him. I texted him of course and tried to be all cute and stuff, i guess, but it worked. I would text him everyday and later that year my friend decided to take my phone and ask him out for me. He answer with "i don't know. i just got out of a relationship." Yea i was upset. So we called him and he said that he was going to walk over to my house. When we walked outside he was standing right there. I didn't really know what to say or do so i gave him a hug and we talked a little. I ended up being his girlfriend that night. We were close but we weren't that close to be completely comfortable with each other. He became my first kiss. I still remember that day like it was yesterday. The sad thing is that relationship didn't last very long. He broke up with me one day at school. I should of known because he hadn't texted me or talked to me in two days. I was so upset i had to start crying, and as i walked past him i looked up and he stared at me. He looked like he was really sorry but i was so mad to even think about that. When i got home i changed everything about him. That night i got a text from him saying he was really sorry and he didnt mean to make me cry. i was just like whatever. After a while i started to get over him but i was never really over him. The end of my sixth grade year i told him that i really like him and he said he really liked me again. So yeaa we went out.. again. We were alone a lot and we did stuff that boyfriend and girlfriends do. I went down the shore one weekend and and he didnt text me or talk to me again. i knew he was planning on breaking up with me. And he did. It was finally summer and he had a new girlfriend and i tried to forget about him. I went on to seventh grade and he went of to eight and i tried to live my life! And i did. i did such fun this and stuff and loved life. i still liked him and i told me i didnt because i didnt want people to think i was like obsessed with him. Well, now its my eigtht grade year and im supposed to have fun. so i tried to talk to other people and i had a couple boyfriends and "things" with guys but i could still not get over my ex boyfriend. So i finally get a boyfriend that i like and i start to date him. After being with him for about a month, i get a text from my ex boyfriend. He misses me. and i told him i missed him so much. so i broke up with my boyfriend for him. He was grounded for breaking up with his ex girlfriend because they were so close to his family so we couldnt tell anyone we were dating, only our best friends. He would sneak out at night to come see me, but one night he go caught. He told his dad he was at his friends house but i dont think his dad believed him and took his phone away. the next day he told me his dad looked through his text messages and saw the ones from me. So we kinda just stopped talking. I was so upset that i hadnt eaten in two days and my friends could all tell there was something wrong. i told them i was fine but i wasnt i was extemely hurt. When i found out that he had a new girlfriend and that it was one of my BEST friends i could not take it anymore. i hated him absolutly hated him. So i finally say to myself that im over him. i now have this new kid that im talking to and hes cute and so sweet. but i wouldnt go out with him. One day i walked outside of my house and i see my ex boyfriend standing there staring at me. i couldnt believe that he would ever show his face again after what he did. he told me to hang out with him so i did. I got over the fact that he was horrible to me so i hung out with him. we talked about a lot of things and then out of nowhere he says "im sorry". I was shocked. He gave me this whole speech on what hes done and what not and how horrible he has been to me. And when i looked up there was a tear in his eye. i knew that he meant what he said. He told me he just wanted to be with me again and i told him i dont know and that i would have to really think about it. we sat there in silence for a while and then his dad called him and said it was time for him to go home. The next day he wanted to hang out so i went to his house and he asked me a question. Would you be my girlfriend? My mom had just pulled up in the drive way and honked the horn so i go up and I ran out of his house and screamed yes. That was on June 15, 2010. He extremely special and i know he loves me because if he didnt he would have taken my virginity. That same night he told me that he was in love with me and that he has never cared about so as much as he cared about me. I told him i loved him. He told me one more thing.. "i will never leave you."