the day i was left with nothing

stan

Well i don't really know where to start off this is by far the worst thing that has ever happened in my life... it started in 7th grade when I saw this beautiful girl in my class her name was Maddie and as soon as i saw her i knew she was the one and that I would marry her.. I didn't had the gut to talk to her until the summer before my freshman year we started dating for about 2 months until her friends screwed it up. I was devastated and ever since then I had been looking for a girl just to fill the void she left but no girl was ever the same just not her..

Went through all of freshman year with just being best-friend with her which was okay but I wanted a relationship but she just thought we were best=friends she didn't think anything else between us until one day of summer.It was my sophomore year I asked to hang out with her so I picked her up and we just went and hung out and everything went perfect! she realized she liked me 2 days later I asked her out and she said yes! best day ever ! she fell in love with me in the first month she bragged about how could I was to her and how she loved me with all her heart and wanted to marry me and I wanted the same. Me and her..... we were the best couple you ever will see! we were dating for about a year! And sure we had our fights here in there but this night we were fighting about the stupidest thing she was mad because i had yelled at someone at her work because we walked past them holding hands and the guy jokingly ( i didn't know it at the time) said well you little cheater he was about the same age as me anyway. I went off and yelled and pushed him and made a scene she was mad at me she told me he was joking and after being mad for the whole car ride to her house when we got there she said "i think you should just leave ill see you later" i said again ''baby I'm sorry'' she said" baby you know I'm mad right now but i promise ill always forgive you, i love you ill see you tomorrow" she gave me a kiss and walked off. She didn't text me back that night i was suppose to take her to work at 10:30 the next morning> I figured ..oh well I'll see her tomorrow and I'll fix this when I woke up at 8 i texted her at 9:30 still no reply i thought well shes sleeping in (because she always use to do that) 10 am... still no call or text nothing, 10:30 I figured she slept in and missed work 2:30.... that afternoon her mom calls and says you need to come over. I get there and went into a house of crying sobbing family I asked what was wrong where's Maddie.. she died the night before when a drunk driver hit her and her friend in there car on the way home from the store.. I'm lost I don't know what to do with my life she was my soul-mate she was my everything and i was sure we would be together forever... I dont know what to do anymore its been 3 days I don't think i can handle the pain anymore.. please help me.. I needed her and she's not here. There is no god ....if there was he wouldn't let that happen to such an amazing caring beautiful young lady who i was so proud to call mine<3........