I cant get over him

Shannon

I have basically loved the same guy for ten months. i walked into the classroom on the first day of school and i instantly fell in love. he was always this sweet and funny guy who cared so much about me and my best friend. i am most definitely not the prettiest girl around. but him being a typical guy he liked the prettiest girl who is a cheerleader and all that. so i went 6 months hiding it. any one who knew about it said it was totally obvious so over the year i got a boyfriend and well i honestly woke up every day and had to tell my self that i liked him and wanted to be his girlfriend. that ended quickly. he found out by accident that i loved him i was talking to my friend and hit the wrong button by accident, oops!! the next day i expected it to be like sooo awkward but it wasn't. he treated me as if nothing happened at all. the grad dance was coming up and of course the ugly girl(me) had no one to go with. so one night i texted him "what would u say if i asked you to the dance?" he said "probs no srry" i said "oh okay..." so thats where i left that! the next day in science where we sat together he looked at me in the eyes for like a minuite and we just kinda stood there like that then the teacher came over and distracted me. :(
so i went to the dance in a stunning dress and i walked in and he just was like "woah!!!" and i walked past.
the dance was almost over and they played all slow songs at the end and they played our song that i picked and i look across at him and he was dancing with another girl ran out right past them and stared balling my eyes out.
the next day he asked my friend why i was crying and unfortunately she told him and he said she never asked me to the dance. and so did my friend she said sorry he asked i had to tell. i felt a tear run down my face as he walked away!
now its summer and my heart is broken and we havent spoke since. there i go loosing one of my best guy friends again.... only i wish things were different... i can never let him go.... I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'(