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Zabuya Dreamchaser

It all started very nice i loved her she loved me but we didn't know it from each other so we were just friends...Until oen day a friend of me told me that she is in love with me so we played family on Facebook (smile).I was the father my best friend(in who i was and am in love)was the mother and are two friends we're the kids....Next day (it was the 4 January 2012)I sent my best friend a sms with a sweet good morning greet,she replied and than i asked her out....She said yes and i was so happy my heart went like a dancer and it almost make me die...(It was 10:00 in the morning when she said yes)......

We were very happy but we both knew that i need to leave.I grew up in Greece on the beautiful island Crete i went to school there and did everything there had my friends my family my everything but still I had to go to Germany to study and start a better life so i had only one choice leave Crete....I finished school until then we had lot of fun with my girlfriend we had conversation about how it is going to be now that i'm leaving and stuff like that,it really meant a lot to me caused i really loved her......We were six months together it was time to leave so that's what I did I cried I didn't wanna leave but we both knew I need to.... so we lived with it......The distance was killing us and then i made the BIGGEST MISTAKE SOMEBODY CAN DO(don't try this at home =P) I broke up...For her a world fell on her head for me it was the same but i didn't wanna show it,it would hurt more if we were from this distance together than single (that's what i thought)
I found somebody I liked her but it wasn't really love it was just a relationship I hoped we can both get passed each other but that was a mistake and now i am the BIGGEST ASSHOLE THAT LIVED ON THIS PLANET FOR LEAVING THE BEST GIRL and now she has somebody new she is happy(and because she is, I have to be too.. I owe it to her)....Everybody has the moment when we need a time machine and that's what I need now but nobody can help me...I did really some bullshit now i have to live with the consequences even if I'd want something else.