My Love is gone...

Sabrina

My story is not different than other girls.. The girl is falling in love as the guy is not interested by her. Well i will tell you my story.... :

First i have to say i'm Canadian and my love is Scottish. I'm 14 and he's 18. His name is Calum. When i first met him on a game i was kinda depressed because i thought no one loved me and i was having problems in my family. We started to talk every day, we couldn't get a day without talking to each others. It was true love (for me). We hang out together for over 3 months. I never had been that happy of my life. Even my parents had noticed that something had changed. He was my everything and we were always writing love note for each others. When i started to do poems in English for him which was very difficult for me because I'm french, he said it was cute and did the same. But as he doesn't know French he was writing in English.
There is one of his poem he sent me couples of days before my fairytale ends :

-When i had travelled half the road of life i found myself in the midst of a dark forest : I'd lost my wat, strayed from the true path. But thank you to you, you put me back on the correct path, losing you would put me back in the woods, even now my senses reel at the memory.- By Calum

After 3 months together everything was going still perfect. Until i go to a travel with school. We were going to Boston my friends and I. i spent only 3 days there and i didn't had internet. i was having it only to my hotel late in the night. So i got to talk to him a couple of times during my 3 days. When i sat in the bus i was still having internet. we were leaving to go back in our country. As i saw he had removed all my comments of his page and his page was owned by an other girl. There was a lot of love quotes on his page but for the first time ... it wasn't mines... i got so sad i couldn't finish my travel happily. None of my friends had been able to make me smile. i cried mostly of the day and i will always remember that day. The feeling i had when i received his mail cant be described. So horrible, so much pain at the same time in my heart and head. it feels a little as we were burning your body but small parts at a time to make you suffer even more. I felt also as if i was on Earth for nothing, my soulamte was gone why would i stay on this planet? when i went back home my parents they knew something wrong had happened. They never knew why because i didn't told anyone about him. I wanted to keep him for myself as a secret. i never knew why he gave up on me that easily but we are still talking. It's not the same, i still have a lot of feelings for him but he does not anymore. Each time i talk to him it hurts me. That's the only reason I'm still alive. Its because i still think i have a chance with my lover. He's my everything and i would never give up on him even if he caused me so much pain. He's the subject of my so many scars on my wrist, legs and arms. I've tried to stop but it's my only way to let my pain out. I never wanted to talk about this. The ones which will read that will be the first to know the real me. It's a true story all this is true. I'm still heartbroken.

I loved you so much Calum, even if my heart is broken you are the only one abble to fix it </3