Love of my life. A sad one. NM <3

Marouf

Alright guys so I'm going to tell you about what happened with my life. I'm going to make sure that you guys don't get bored or something. Sit back, relax and read this story, it's not special though, but moments are special for me. <3. So alright, I'll start it.

First of all my love was different, it will remain different. Haha yeah I never wasn't a playboy or something. Was never interested in all this. Okay so my name is Marouf. I just turned 17 on 28th October. Life treated me badly, was just average life. Still I love my friends who are close to me. I just love them, they're the best friends I could ever get. They are Hamza, Sohail and Obaid. These 3 guys are the best friend of my life. Alright I'm from Dhaka Bangladesh. And I don't know much about my country cause I live in UAE. I always helped every person in my entire life, whether it's a girl or a guy. Some guys even misunderstood me that I'm trying to hit on their Girlfriends, but somehow I managed to stay safe. Girls always liked me cause I was helpful, cute and lovable.

I'll get to the point now. 22 July, I added a girl. Won't tell her name. I didn't know how she was, her attitude, her sweetness was different. I started my chat by writing her ''Hello, Do I know you'' and she replies ''I don't know who I am, what a stupid question''. I laughed hardly, I asked her from where is she and she replied ''The queen of Bangladesh''. Alright I'll be honest, she WAS BEAUTIFUL, GORGEOUS, A BABY DOLL (Sorry Justin for using your word, haha). Justin was her friend, he's Canadian. So day by day we're chatting, getting closer, I got to know her somehow. So yeah I loved her since the day I added her, something was changed in my heart when she came in. So one day I told her that I love her, she replied ''Oooohhh'' and I didn't force her. I asked her that does she like someone, she said maybe some other guy likes her. I didn't force her much because it hurts badly when you force a girl to be with you. So I didn't react much and stopped talking to her and kept her in my heart. Well I couldn't see anyone flirting with her, our school was filled with assholes around, who date 2-3 girls at once, while having a girlfriend. So yeah, I used to always poke her ass to stay safe, like by telling her to choose this guy, that guy. A good guy indeed, who will keep her happy as I will If I get her.

I fought with her, made her sad at times too, because I was crazy for her, I was already in love with her. Then we stopped talking around for few days. Then this year, I fell in love with another girl, her name was Zara. I loved her, same way I did N******. So she told me that I'm too good for her, but she is bad, we talked on social sites. Then I flied to my country Bangladesh. We called, talked, laughed, but one night I told her to come to the mall to meet me. I was really happy that day, cause I'm going to meet her and tell her on her face that I love her. So I go inside the lift, I had blue orchard flowers, when I step out of the lift, and go towards her, I see her hugging another guy, and she kissed him on his cheek. I became angry, I threw the flowers and crushed them with my shoes. She saw me, she came running to me, and yeah again my heart broke, I can't ever forgive her for what she has done. Few days later was Eid, she messaged me Eid Mubarak with a long forgiveness letter, I forgive-d her. I don't talk to her anymore, she means nothing to me.

Then one night I message N******, she was at Bangladesh the same time. I messaged her about Zara, she told me that I still love her, she understood my heart. I told her no, I can't love her cause she betrayed me. Then suddenly I told her that I love her too, she became shocked, telling me I am drunk, I can't love 2 girls at once, yes she thought I'm really drunk. But what do to, the first love is always true, I always loved N****** from the core of my heart. Protected her, kept her safe. Then next day I asked her that does she like anyone, she replied about her friend, I don't want to take his name here, because he is a big player, he's one of them who dates many girls at once. I always tried to keep her away from him. But N****** loved him cause he gave her memories, she loved him, infact he did too. But that wasn't love, A guy who loves many girls at once, has to face difficulties somehow in his life. I explained her, she cried, I could understand but also the same time I felt bad cause he's wrong for her. Justin, who was my close friend and more closer to N******, he knew that I loved her a lot. He told me to get her and let her forget that enemy of mine. Cause even Justin hated him.

I felt that life is taking me somewhere good, where I can find something and someone better than my past affairs. So I thought why not give it a try. Next day, I messaged her that I love her, my feelings, how I feel about her, how I wanna be with her, how I wanna love her, how I wanna take care of her, how I wanna feel her to love me. She replied that she has nothing to say, and she told me again, that I can't forget Zara, and I'm getting her, it's not possible. Somehow everyday we chatted, became close, we started dating, I sent her a letter (My letter's layout and designs used to suck though :P) but I used to. She used to get happy by my love, stay protected by me, she always wanted to bite me. Haha, that's what she was, the perfect one for me. I knew, it won't be easy for her to forget about that guy, even though she told me that she forgot him, I already forgot Zara when I got N******, because what Zara did with me was horrible.

Alright so I'll be honest, I used to cry for N****** Then the season changed, rain rain and just rain. She used to love rain, she wanted me to kiss during rain, I used to message her till morning 8 AM. Those moments, those love, feelings, hard to forget, for me and her. She wanted me to be with her during rain. Before the day I was leaving also rained. I left my country at 8th September, she was at Bangladesh, she came here after few days I came. We had fights, yes I'll be true, I still used to think that that guy loves her and she also does, I used to ask her if I forced her to be with me but she replied me nicely that no, I'm the best guy for her who can only love her. She used to love the way I used to love her. Everything. On 26th, she sent me the longest message ever telling me how much she loves me, she feels about me, and wishing me for my birthday before anyone else. I loved that message, I reviewed it like 6-7 times at night. We had a lot of fights, she forgive-d me, I hurted her a lot, I did, really. :'( Alright I'm crying right now so readers, don't be sad lol. Now since 3 days, we are on an argument, she thinks I don't trust her, or love her, I don't understand her, when I used to tell I'm not perfect for her, she told me I'm the best. All this fight for that guy who I was talking about. She's the one who got me rid of my bad habits, smoking this that etc. I left all that. Since 3 days I miss her a lot, my nights have turned really dark , I miss her a lot. I love her a lot, I won't forgive myself for whatever I've done to her. She loves me too, but I deserve a punishment. I love her till death. I always told her to love her is to die for her. I can't live without her, our dreams, future dreams, romantic times, each and everything. I miss messaging her when she slept, the messages, where I loved her deeply. Just everything. I'm sorry to the readers, I know I am a bad guy, but I love her, I won't get any girl like her, I wan't to marry her, make our life. Love each other. I want to be her everything. When she'll cry I'll be her teddy to hug me. When she'll be stressed, I'll be the one to clear it out. When she'll be upset, I'll be the joker to make her laugh. When she'll come near to me I'll be the one to kiss her lips. :'( 3 days I'm living like a dead man in the street, alone and lonely.

So yeah, that's my story . Thank you all for listening to my life story , got bored though, but yes, I love her.

Adios.