She

Dimitri

It was there. Love. the day i met her. I knew she was young and i knew there would be consequences she was 17 at the time. and i was 24. i loved her Dearly. Everyone told us that we would get caught that we would be in trouble. (more like me be in big trouble) But society didn't see it as rape. They saw it as friendship. We were in no rush to move things along.
Until one night we were alone in my house and she insisted on us watching a movie. I asked her to pick one. When she had to pick the movie I felt her tremble and i saw the fear in her eyes. She knew something was up and she didn't tell me. About 15 minutes into the Movie. I got a knock on my door. And it was the police. I was shocked. I wasn't in trouble But she was. Her parents were frantic and they were yelling at me like I was a demon or something.
Later on that night I got a phone call from her parents saying that She's too young to be with you. She can't be with you. She has to think about her life before she knows what she needs to do. At that moment. I knew something else was up. The call was just a warning. I drove over to her house and noticed the police there. Now things started to get eerie. I blame myself for what happens the encounter with her parents. I walk over into the yard and the father attacks me. literally hitting me and punching me. The mother stands back holding back tears, but they came out like fire works. I didn't know any better. I walked over the the mother and she wiped the tears away. She slapped me then hugged me. (Everything seems like a movie now). I didn't know what happened. The police officer comes over to me and pulls me away from the sad and upset mother and father. They walked me into my lovers home. And took me to her room. it was beautiful. Like any other teenage girls room. I Followed the patterns on the walls and noticed a note on the wall, the police officer was quiet, I walked over to the note and I almost killed myself for what was written. "I love you Dimitri. And I know you loved me. We are two separate people. I am a teenager and you an adult. So, I made a discussion, today will be my last night with you. because if you can't have me then. No one can. i hope you understand that I mean well. And that you took over my whole heart." A tear leaked down. For knowing she killed herself to be with me.
It is the first time I had told the story to anybody. Let alone the internet. She was a dear girl. And She was the one I loved dearly. It's been a year after her death and i still haven't found the ability to let myself love anyone else.