Empty me

Marilou

Some people believe in dreams,in wishes,in unconditional love or in love with the first sight. I used to be one of those people. But I'm not anymore. I used to live in a world full of magic a world that none can possibly hurt me. A world completely safe for me and my heart. I was a dreamer and none or nothing could take away my dreams ,my hopes. I was perfectly happy in this situation, I was perfectly safe. I was keeping my distance from everyone. I was building huge walls around me so none can come and get me from my world , my reality , my safety and then suddenly you show up. You brought confusion in my life. But it was a sweet confusion. We were having good time together. I shared my dreams, my hopes with you. And little by little you took everything from me. I didn't get it because I was blind....I was in love. I was so foolish that for a while I actually believed that you love me..that you were in love with me. I thought that you were feeling the same way I did. No, that was another dream of my imagination or maybe a nightmare.I woke up and none was there next to me.

You disappeared. Just like that without a goodbye,without an explanation. You played with my feelings and you broke my heart into tiny million peaces.I can't sleep,I can't dream,I can't hope.I am wondering around the streets alone. I lost my way, I lost my soul. You stole it. But still after all those things you did to me I still love you. I still die for you. I still give everything just to have you back. I am screaming at the top of my voice that I want a second chance. I want a second chance to make the same sweet mistake again. I am in my cold dark room. Once again I cannot breath. My pretty pink happy world fell apart. Now there is only dark and nothing more. All those memories they are killing me slowly from inside to out. How could you be so heartless? I am faking a smile, a laugh to my friends so they can think that I'm fine, That everything is ok. Well it's not. Then I'm here again in my destroyed world. In my cold dark room. Suffering,crying,bleeding. I'm empty. I loved you more than you deserve so you hurt me more than I can stand. How can I ever love again? I'm so tired. So week.Your presence is still here and the pain is killing me. You have my heart,my mind,my dreams, my hopes my everything, You have the whole me. My wounds are so real. When are they going to heal? Will they? I've tried so hard to realize that you're gone. That you will never come back again and that I have to move on. But unfortunately I'm a terrible liar. You have all of me and I'm empty inside. The dark and the black is my personality now.