The last words with my brother
DarknessAngel
24 Nov, 2012 02:56 PM
It's been a while since I've experienced this. This happened in 2007, when I was Ten. My brother Chris was 18 at the time, and had lung cancer. He was growing weaker and weaker, he was coughing so much, and breathing was becoming hard for him. Very hard.
On December 23rd 2007, 2 days before Christmas, I visited him in the Hospital. He was in the hospital because doctors expected him to pass very soon, and they didn't want him at home to die. Me and him acted very friendly towards each other. He acted like he had no cancer, and he was at home again. He laughed, he coughed, but suddenly he began to cry. He looked me right in the eye, and told me these words, the words that still haunt and make me cry to this day:
"Rachel, I need you to know some things. No matter what happens to me, even if I die, I am begging you not to mourn. I want you to continue on with life, and comfort mom and dad, and everybody else. Whatever is in my room, just tell mom and dad to sell everything, and say I said so. And, with all the money that is earned, use it to buy yourself some extra presents. They can make my bedroom into anything they want, as long as you agree. You're their only child now, they will likely listen. Even if I die today, or tomorrow, just keep me in you're heart and mind. I will always be with you, no matter what. It's my time to go,and you're time to live. Be safe of my heart. Even if it stops beating...it will always beat in the sky." And then he carefully hugged me, as tight as he could. I couldn't understand why he said goodbye to me right then, but now I do. I thought he was saying goodbye because he might not get the chance later, but that was only half the reason. On December 25th, 4:08 pm, mom got a call from the hospital...and the person said Chris had died. I cried for hours and hours,but i finally got the control to tell them his commands, and they obeyed.
We made 88 dollars from all his stuff. I didn't use the money, and to this day I still have the 88 dollars in my wallet. I cried for many days,for many hours,but then I remembered he told me not to mourn, so I suddenly felt like I needed to stop. I did stop, and I did comfort everybody else who was mourning. The reason he said goodbye to me on the 23rd was because the doctors told him he had 2 days left to live, and they were right. And, the hospital wouldn't allow him any visitors on Christmas Eve. With five Christmases now passed without him, and a sixth Christmas creeping closer and closer, I felt it was time to share this story. Goodbye,Chris. I will always love you ;(
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Comments
Post a Comment19 Feb, 2013 02:38 AM
ohh my god i am so sorry just think of him never let him go
19 Feb, 2013 02:34 PM
really touching
20 Feb, 2013 04:54 AM
very sweet brother...reminds of my brother to..but hope he won't get sick..
and hope you are not sad anymore..as what he said..you must go on..he's always there guiding you all
22 Feb, 2013 12:00 AM
very sad....made me cry...........today is the 1 year anniversary of my closest friends death and it still hits me like a tone of brick every morning i wake up knowing i will never see his smiling face again
23 Feb, 2013 10:20 AM
Brother :)
26 Feb, 2013 05:39 PM
i love u my dearest bro....
26 Feb, 2013 06:31 PM
I'm sorry for your loss. And I think its beautiful that you still keep the money you earned for his stuff. I have an older brother too. He is my everything. You made me want to cherish every moment with him. God Bless you(:
27 Feb, 2013 09:02 AM
Dear bro, I'll be your brother, elder older, so always keep smiling, god bless you and have mercy on ur brother,
28 Feb, 2013 11:27 PM
My best friend Katelyn was admitted to the hospital at 4:30 p.m. On Wednesday. She had gotten into a serious wreck in jellico and is no in ICU. Her father died, his head plummeted through the windshield. She has a fractured skull and bleeding of the brain. She also has several broken bones including her collar bone. She isn't saved. Just please keep her in your mind and prayers. Thanks????
02 Mar, 2013 09:41 PM
he will always be your gaurdean angle
03 Mar, 2013 07:15 PM
I feel very sorry for you. Remember to stay strong and you can become accepted to society where anyone will feel your pain, people like you who are in bad pain deserve a second chance. Go with god, and I wish you good luck.
03 Mar, 2013 07:52 PM
OMG That was soooo tuching we'll all miss him :D
03 Mar, 2013 09:52 PM
this is a very touching story, i jst wish i had a brother whom i will take as my everything and feel free 2 tlk 2 about anything happening in my life....
06 Mar, 2013 08:24 AM
I know you most miss him so much.i also lost my big brother.i know how it feelings.i know he's in a better place and watching you with per love .god bless his soul :)
07 Mar, 2013 10:36 PM
may his soul rest in peace , i've never had a brother , i always wished i had but u had it and he will always survey u from the sky :) god be with u and hope u won't lose any other important person in ur life
08 Mar, 2013 04:43 AM
Wow... Brought me down to tears. I feel emotion again. Your a strong person...
11 Mar, 2013 08:16 PM
Hey !This touching story reminds me of my cousin bro once again who pass away last year m writing this with dripping tears . Its hard but but we must let it go hopping that his soul rest in peace .Be strong God Bless .
12 Mar, 2013 07:04 PM
dam that's so sad to hear sorry for your loss :( story really put me in tears :,(
13 Mar, 2013 04:19 PM
such a moving story, it made me remember the book named My Sister's Keeper. I have a sis, I will do everything for her. We are so lucky to have such good siblings.
Hope you be happy everyday and remember his love all the time when you feel sad.
Good luck,god bless you.
13 Mar, 2013 11:05 PM
Im so glad i came across this. What an amazing story. Your brother is one brave guy. No one can ever take your love and memories. Thats somethin youll keep till the end. XxX Thank you for sharing this. It wouldnt of been easyat all. Brave girl, like your brother.
18 Mar, 2013 06:10 PM
so sad..
19 Mar, 2013 07:25 AM
Really heart touching , some people in life leaves u early and some remains with u for long but end is same . everyone have to leave this world one day .
21 Mar, 2013 12:06 AM
oh!! what a sad story i feel for it dear but we gotto let things the way there are
21 Mar, 2013 07:32 PM
Hey thts a good brother you have there he cares for u my brother used to beat me but now he's in jail I still love him n go to see him when I can get a ride I mean I am sad he beat me but he's my big brother n ur brother must be really nice... Love always , Shayla from ocoee
22 Mar, 2013 06:57 AM
Omg this is making me cry.this is very touching in every way
23 Mar, 2013 02:33 AM
This is so sad but ur bro will always be there 4 u
24 Mar, 2013 02:05 AM
This was such a sad story, Your brother is still there protecting you, I was teary-eyed.
24 Mar, 2013 11:27 AM
I feel so sad as i read the storyit made me cry,i remember my younger brother who passed away,it hurts me so much,i have'nt see him for a long time until he passed away by an accident...
24 Mar, 2013 03:05 PM
Amen.....great love......
29 Mar, 2013 10:13 AM
omg god y u seperate them
31 Mar, 2013 10:24 AM
i know how you feel..
14 Apr, 2013 01:01 PM
I think this is realy sad
29 Apr, 2013 03:58 PM
I don't understand every word, because my english not good.. but it very sad story... Be strong
30 May, 2013 10:14 PM
Oh...what a loving brother. Stories like these make you appreciate your loved ones even more.
03 Jun, 2013 09:25 AM
you had an amazingly strong brother, and you better listen to him and stay strong. cuz he sounds like the most amazing person ever. i'm sorry for your loss.
07 Dec, 2013 05:36 AM
Sad story i am crying so bad i couldnt write my comment.may god bless u and everyone be strong and try to go on ur life.
02 Feb, 2014 10:07 AM
Omg this is so heart touching .!! God bless him peace
28 Feb, 2014 12:32 AM
My grandmom and my other one and grandfather and other one are dead they passes a few years ago and now my uncle is during because of embolism :'(
28 Feb, 2014 12:33 AM
But everyone has to let go sometimes
08 Mar, 2014 04:22 AM
Im so sorry to hear that..Im so proud of you..He really loves you ..And ur lucky to have a brother like him..I know hes in heaven..Hes watching you..So keep strong,be happy.. :-)
24 Sep, 2014 03:01 PM
We're both the same i hope you just get over it and move on one day you will follow him and the same to me I'm gonna follow my brothers one day.
23 Nov, 2014 10:45 PM
Im sorry ????
03 Dec, 2014 07:26 PM
Feeling sad for you
May his soul rest in peace
you remembered my cousin bro'
me too missing my bro' love you samran... !"
07 Dec, 2014 07:27 AM
the relationship between them as a golden thread that's run through over their heart.but nowadays the relationship is more prior to money onwards..i envisage that if the era is be like this means the kind of humanity may be demolish..that's all from vimala nathan
23 Feb, 2015 01:43 PM
this story is touching. I've cried a lot since reading it. the jaws of cancer are so large and sharp. they pierce the heart body and soul. am so sorry. it made me remember how my young cousin bro battled leukemia at the age of 6 so bravely without a year or mourn.
01 Apr, 2015 11:59 PM
that's a very sad story......i never cry when reading a story but this one got me crying hey......may his soul rest in perfect peace
05 May, 2015 11:51 AM
God bless your brother presence where ever he is. You are really lucky to have the best brother.I feel sorry for your loss..
01 Jun, 2015 03:01 PM
Thank you for sharing your story. I must say it was vary sad indeed. But know this he is in a better place. No pain to hold him back. I do believe he is looking down upon you and your family. I can not say i have lost my brother but what i can say is that i lost a man that was a father figure to me. As he laid there in bed. No way of talking or seeing i knew he could hear me say "I love you and you were and always will be my father" After that he tightend his grasp on my hand. Just know these people of our past that are no longer with us will and always love us.
17 Jul, 2015 12:32 AM
Wow that was sooo sad. I felt bad that he died on Christmas.
22 Sep, 2015 09:30 AM
That is so sad! Even I lost my best friend due to cancer. :(
14 Dec, 2015 12:04 PM
Nice story...It made thought of my brother who've changed his bad attitude to good attitude just because of HB dissease, but I know brothers really love being with theire families, eventhough sometimes it is so hard for them to control theire attitude...just keep on believing that God will heal those people suffering with illness...
01 Feb, 2016 06:31 AM
To bad for.....what a sad memory
13 Feb, 2016 06:35 PM
So sad I cry so much reading this....but Don't worry god have better place for him
22 Sep, 2016 01:58 AM
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22 Sep, 2016 02:36 AM
The person who wrote the story what is ur full name I'm using this as a project and I want to cute your work and give u credit but I can't say ur username I need the authors name and this is ur masterpiece so plz
22 Nov, 2016 06:21 AM
I'm soooooo sorry. :'(:'(:'( I was crying and don't normally cry about people I don't know.
24 Nov, 2016 02:12 PM
wow
05 Mar, 2017 05:12 AM
Noooo! That is so devastating! I feel so bad for you. I'll never complain about my siblings ever again! :(
24 Mar, 2017 12:57 PM
That sucks. At least he got to say his goodbyes and your parents fulfilled his wishes. I will keep you in my prayers. <3
28 Mar, 2017 05:24 PM
keep your head up baby girl
12 Jul, 2017 05:57 PM
Believes.