Only Been Weeks

Arcana

It's only been weeks since I last saw him, but it feels like years. I can still remember his smile, like I saw it yesterday, but its only been weeks

His name was James. Tall, athletic,class clown, and my heart throb. I spent sixth and seventh grade just staring at him, looking at him, and even stalking him on Facebook. Yeah, I admit it. Then high school came. I became taller, prettier, and louder. Finally, just finally, James started to notice me. It feels like it's only been weeks since he asked me out. We went to the beach, and dinner, it was pretty cool. No awkward moments or anything. Soon, we were joined at the hip.

James and Arcana, James and Arcana, it was the perfect match. He was my best friend. No, more than that.We were the popular couple. Gossip went around about us, whispers about what we did at dates. We didn't really care, though. We had each other, that was all that mattered. So many months went by. We went everywhere, we told our secret to each other, and nothing worried us. Absolutely nothing. Nothing at all. And still it feels like it has only been weeks since he left me.

It was the month before college. He told me that he couldn't be with me anymore, that it was best that we left each other. And so we did. I couldn't get over him. I know I couldn't. I cried into my pillow everyday, trying to understand exactly why he wanted to leave me. James and Arcana James and Arcana. Wasn't that enough? Wasn't it perfect?

But no it wasn't. It's only been weeks after our break-up that he found another girl. Her name was Jessica. James and Jessica James and Jessica. That was perfect for him, wasn't it? I tried my best to accept the fact that he's moved on, but I couldn't. I know I couldn't. It's only been weeks since he texted me. "Hey, Arcana, just wanted to let you know that I really liked those years we had. I was wondering if u wanna hang out on Saturday?"

I cried. I know i did. the salty water dripping onto my phone, leaving blank stains. But I wont go back. I couldn't go back to the weeks that we had together, laughing and kissing. And its only been weeks since I moved on.