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youbelongwithme
22 Jul, 2010 07:40 PM
I met this guy through my gay friend. i just asked what's his name and I didn't expect that my friend would give him my number to let him text me. I was so shocked when he text me that day, but my friend said that he's nice so i befriended him. OK, to make the story short, we get along just fine, we became closer as the days go by, we chat almost everyday.
Then one day we went to the mall with our friends and suddenly I felt something different inside me when accidentally our eyes met, I'm definitely falling in love with him. I can't fool myself so I made up my mind that night that I will tell him about my feelings soon. But just that next afternoon, he told me that he broke up with his girlfriend that day so I end up comforting him. After that he thanked me and that's when he said that he's saying everything to me because he considered me as his best friend. OUCH! But that's the reality, he just see me as a friend and nothing more. I didn't get a chance to tell him about my feelings.
Two years have passed and we're still close friends, comforting him whenever he's heartbroken and hiding my one-way love.
One afternoon this march, he called me and asked me about my one girl friend, I was not in a good mood that day because of my upcoming exam result that's concerning my graduation. So I just said I don't want to talk about anyone but he insisted on asking. I get pissed off and said, "OK I'll just give you her number for you to shut up." But then he said, "Aw, no need. It seems someone's getting jealous.."
I got the biggest shock of my life. I didn't know that he know even a little about my feelings for him. But I don't want to give him a hint so I just said "who?" Then he changed the topic. That's what I love about him. Even though he knows something, he never get to embarrass me. i didn't say anything about this but I know that I'm quite obvious, so to get away from that issue, I helped him. My friend became his girlfriend after a month.
My other friends who know my REAL feelings always ask me why I did that. They often get angry with me because of my "katangahan".
Yes, I admit that I want him for myself. But not everytime, you should always think of yourself. For me, it's much better to think first of the consequences of your actions.
What If I confess my feelings for him and then after he avoids me? I still want him to be my bestfriend.
But then I saw them one day at the mall very sweet and I felt my heart crushed right that very moment. I realized that nothing has changed about my feelings so i started to avoid them as much as I can and they noticed it.
When we saw each other at our common friend's birthday just this May, I was told that he was not going so I went there. But there he was and he saw me so I can't escape anymore.
He asked me, "What happened? Why are you avoiding me?" Of course I denied and said that I was just busy for the upcoming board exam. Although not convinced, he wished me luck, I nodded and started to walking. Just like that and he doesn't even tried to stop me to ask me what's wrong. I was fighting my tears when I went home. I cried myself to sleep that night especially when I saw those pictures that they posted at FB in the party earlier.
That's when it struck me. It's the REALITY.
They're so happy with each other now and I should accept that FACT.
We haven't talked until now. That's the last time we talked. He tried to call me last month but I didn't answer. He texted me but I didn't text back. Maybe he got tired trying to reach me so he stopped.
I know time will come that we will be okay just like before but I still don't know when.
I just wanna share my story to tell you guys never to attach yourself, never to assume and never to fall for your best friend because it's the worst thing you'll ever experience.
Thanks for reading this guys.
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Comments
Post a Comment28 Jul, 2010 06:46 PM
Hun you should still tell him how you feel you never know he might be hinding feelings for you at the same time he might be a bit of a better actor but you wont know unless you tell him and see ok?
30 Jul, 2010 01:40 AM
Rikiio: hi tnx 4d comment. But I dont think it would help. Maybe's are not enough, & i see they're so happy now so I'll just got to move on. I'm a bit OK now, sharing my story helped me to ease my feelings. Tnx for the advice.?
31 Jul, 2010 04:37 AM
you know this guy for more time than his current or previous gf.....so u r the best judge of how he is and if u n he are meant to b together to live "happily everafter".
Sometimes the only regret that we have if what if i could have gathered the courage to tell that person abt the love we have in our heart....
anyways would wish u all the luck u need
31 Jul, 2010 10:15 AM
There's nothing wrong in trying.but i think ur right.
I can feel ur pain.im also heartbroken when i read ur story.
02 Aug, 2010 11:44 PM
You're definitely a great girl. That's all I can say, You did just right.
16 Sep, 2010 06:25 AM
Oh im so heartbroken when i read this.
I just cant explain the impact on me.
You're one heck of a girl. Giving up and moving on just like that is sooo hard.
I've tried that.
Anyway, i wish you luck and maybe you havent met your soulmate yet.
Dont stop loving. Goodluck.
09 May, 2011 07:19 AM
hi i love your story i hate being attach to someone because it's to hurt....
31 Dec, 2011 12:53 PM
OMG!! i love your story.. so whats going on now? i just love to know more about it. Im curious. hehe
01 Jan, 2012 03:47 AM
Sorry sorry sorry. He knew that u love him and his side, he wasn't love u fully. but to confess ur feelings to him, would be fully by working together. He didn't care more when u were not answer to him coz he has no deal love..anyway u were able to get back ur lover by admitting ur feelings.. Yeah u r right to admit ur problem to everyone will make less of ur pain..
01 Jan, 2012 10:44 AM
Same thng happnd with me....
04 Jan, 2012 12:42 AM
this one-way love actually very complicated. for exmple, i'm the one (like the guy u like)...in a middle situation & trying 2 choose the best way to solve the problem even right this way im confuse of my feeling because knowing someone fall in love with me.
04 Jan, 2012 01:50 AM
I felt so sorry reading your story, I know that love sometime hurts but you still don't know what would be his reaction knowing your feelings for him. If given a chance, tell him now.
I wish you luck.
04 Jan, 2012 08:16 AM
nice story,
04 Jan, 2012 02:58 PM
OMG this is exactly what happened with me and my best friend, and i still wish i knew whether i pushed him away or he gave up on me, and now we don't talk at all, i mean our lockers are right next to each other and we completely ignore each other, but it hurts so much and i always wonder if he notices me and hurts like i do. It's been 3 months. I'm never gonna see him again though so i can't change our relationship, but u can change yours. Talk to him.
05 Jan, 2012 11:29 AM
its too bad ooooooooooooooooooo
10 Jan, 2012 12:41 AM
hi...it is very difficult i know,but all the very best..if you can control your own feelings.then you can do anything....love is very important but not more then career,
10 Jan, 2012 10:15 PM
wow that happened to me one time and took me a long time to forget it, i will like to know more about you ,dont know if you want to reach me to my email nichofernandez@yahoo.com
hope we can talk some day.
13 Jan, 2012 03:26 PM
I agree with nick. If you ever feel the need to talk to someone u can email me at roohali12@gmail.com I hope we can become friends and that your situation changes for the better.
23 Feb, 2012 01:06 PM
It's been almost 2 years since I wrote this story and only now that I've read your comments. Well, I just wanna say that nothing has changed since then. We never talked again, maybe he's building his own life now, and i know I'm not a part of it anymore, and i think I should accept that FACT. Though sometimes when I remember our good times, I become sad, but it suddenly becomes bittersweet because I'm still thankful that one time, I get in into his life. I admit I want him to come back, but if it's really over for me and for him, then I'll just accept the REALITY. Thanks for all of the comments and care guys... Loovee... :)
09 May, 2012 06:38 PM
I always say every feeling inside us creat problems themselves. We dream, we wish for our own.....but we never understand others mind. You really a brave girl
26 May, 2012 08:34 AM
I've been there..I told him my feeling but it was too late..He's my bestfriend and he told me he loves me, but we both know that we can't be together and we are afraid of losing what we have..It's really hard to see him everyday with his gf but all you have to do is to stare and smile hoping it was you..
30 May, 2012 11:35 PM
Make an anonymous email and ask him about a girl name (your name) ask him everything you wanted to but never tell that you are the one emailing him. Plz tell what he replies? Even if he may not love you like that he my love u like a sister....better than nothing huh?
04 Jul, 2012 11:16 PM
You should have told him the truth. Then again, it's always easier said than done. Coz he obviously know your true feelings about him. And very sad, to say some guys would tend to ignore and dampen this kind of situation specially if their girl-bestfriends are not their type (I'm not specifically talking about the physical aspect coz every person have their own different concept when it comes to looking for a prospected partner in life), and forgive me when I say that your bestfriend is on the 'Stupid Category List' for not caring how you've felt. As your supposedly-bestfriend, he should have been decent enough to be honest with you and straighten things out between the two of you rather than acting dumb.
But, for all its worth, I really do admire how you handle yourself. Nurturing a one-way love is the hardest thing a person could do. I'm sincerely hoping that you will find that special someone worthy of such devotion. Just be of light heart.
30 Jul, 2012 07:26 PM
I think u should became calm after 2years,but if u dont,try to tell him the fact. Text for him &say that u loved him and waited for him for a long time,but now u think that he is glad with his gf and u wish happiness 4 him 4ever. Just 1text,and dont try to build a relationship in anyway. Thats my opinion... Do what u think thats the best... Good luck
20 Nov, 2013 07:18 PM
i know the feeling hun,
my ex boyfriend and i dated for almost 3 years and we were doing fine then
BAM he dumped me. eventually we got back together but he dumped me again telling me he only sees me as a friend *winces* i am still in love with him and it hurts seeing him all happy buuuut i figured out its time for me to move on
23 Sep, 2014 06:58 AM
We shared the same story. :) Painful but we need to accept the fact.
13 Aug, 2016 11:33 PM
sad story. but can you continue the part 2 .. you really need to let him know how u feeling and maybe he's also feeling the same way
30 Nov, 2016 10:30 PM
Yep ik the feeling it sucked not bding his gf but 3 years later I told him how I felt and he didnt so I got upset and walked away
07 Apr, 2017 07:57 AM
Nice story